July 19, 2007

turning twenty three and not ready for it!

it's close to 10:30pm and i'm still stuck at work. ive just reached my office not too long ago after spending an hour plus at my wardrobe stylist's place, prepping for shoot together. this job is fun. it's unpredictable (tho i'm sorry i had to cancel dinner, bii). it gets my adrenaline pumping. but... is it really worth it? the money is complete crap but i like the job. and i havent been feeling well for the past couple of weeks, feeling drained out, both physically and mentally, but i'm constantly looking forward to shoots.

it's just tormenting, really. because sometimes, you gotta make decisions, for your own benefit. you work for you. you earn for you. if it's not enough, is it acceptable? are you ok with crappy pays? will it be beneficial for you in the future, soon to come? questions, doubts, confusions. things adulthood brings upon you. *heaves a loud sigh* again, becky, welcome to adulthood. i'm turning twenty-three in less than two weeks but i don't think i'm prepared for it. i ddoonnnt wanna grow up! *stomps feet*

anyways, my site was down for the past two days but thanks to ultraunix who have been my sponsor for years, it's back up again because they've increased my bandwidth limit. THANK YOU! could you guys stop loading stuffs from my site temporarily, please? lol. i'll type more when i'm in a healthier state of mind. right now, i'm just slightly exhausted and i need to see my mr. becky. toodlelings!

Posted by becky at July 19, 2007 10:30 PM
Comments

and not far away for me too :(

Posted by: michy at July 20, 2007 12:04 AM

yay! let's grow old and get wilted together! :D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 20, 2007 09:34 AM

wanna exchange age?

Posted by: Cavin at July 20, 2007 09:44 AM

lol, thanks for the offer but no thank you!!! you've already had your share of turning twenty three. hahahaha. :P

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 20, 2007 09:47 AM

yeahhhh ... mari bersama sama ... adoiii ... 23 .. adoiiiii

Posted by: michy at July 21, 2007 04:49 AM

yucks. i dont like 23. i wanna be 16 again! :(

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 21, 2007 09:49 AM

lol i dont wanna be 16, i wanna be 20-22 haha :p

Posted by: mochii at July 22, 2007 02:21 PM

hahahaha kenapa tak nak 16? :O it's a nice age. yum yum. :P

20-22 was ... erm... not too long ago. :P i'm still 22!!! :D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 22, 2007 02:36 PM

coz i dont like schooling life, so not nice -_- then curfew er not like i have but still not nice, cannot watch 18 years old movie in cinema, cannot enter this and cannot enter that .. -_-

Posted by: mochii at July 23, 2007 04:16 PM

which agency you're at now?

Posted by: lucy at July 23, 2007 04:53 PM

hahahahaha... true. ok la. i just wanna be 18. :P

sweet eighteen. :P

yum yum. can go clubbing. kakaka. but not like i love clubbing also la. :P

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2007 05:41 PM

lucy, i'll tell you in msn. :)

prefer not to mention it in public. :D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2007 05:48 PM

hahah 18 no car yet :p

Posted by: michy at July 24, 2007 03:40 PM

lol, but it's legal to drive and drink..

and unf unf!!! :P

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 24, 2007 03:42 PM

hello gorgeous!

Posted by: aj at July 25, 2007 11:32 AM

hello back, most gorgeous! :D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2007 11:43 AM

if ur free n have nothing to blog, kindly do th meme hehe :p

Posted by: michy at July 25, 2007 04:26 PM

what meme? :O

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2007 04:30 PM