Euphoric Moments

riding my life into adulthood.

i could've sworn that it was just months ago when i was still in school uniform, with my hair tied neatly into braids of two. and there was this huge pressure to perform in spm (actually, that's not true la because i never believed in our education system but somehow, till today, i get nightmares of my spm days) because the world judges you on how well you perform during your spms. not to mention how scholarships in colleges and universities depends on it as well.

but in actual fact, it has already been six years since i left highschool which has embossed a whole lot of memories. the good, the bad & the evil. and i remember how excited i was, knowing i'll be going to luct to further my studies, believing that someday, i'll make it big in the industry. because i was overconfident by the awards and random competitions that i've been receiving & participated. i guess now, i could tell that i was pretty much pampered and thought college life has taught me enough about life and provided me with the substantial expectations for life's biggest challenge: adulthood & working life.

so swoosh passed four and a half years and i'm finally a graduate, armed with a bachelor's degree in mass communication (woa, is that a standing ovation im hearing? lol, don't mind my sarcasms) and a diploma in advertising, multimedia & broadcasting. then it was time to look for a job. something i've been looking forward to for a very very long time. i mean after all the big dreams and hopes i've set for myself, i was getting all enthusiastic about starting work.

job hunting session began. i turned down a few job interviews and attended some. got my first job but it sucked because it wasnt what i wanted and the company decided to change it's objectives & goals. so i left, even after one of the partners persuaded me because i felt that a company of four was too small for me to grow further. then i started going for interviews in multi-national companies but i flunked it because i was just too nervous, obviously not very prepared for sudden short-noticed interviews. and i set my eyes on a particular company and told myself, i'm going to get this job, by hook or by crook. sure enough, i got it. and that's where i am now. the beginning of a true career, working in, quoting my colleague, "a land of many opportunities".

this job is fun, challenging, demanding and everything i am prepared for. sure, there are many issues happening lately but seriously speaking, don't all companies have got their own issues? yes, my pay is way below any of my friends but i guess, whether i like to admit it or not, i am still too raw. being a fresh graduate, i still have a lot to learn about the cruel industry. if i don't like someone, suck it in. if i've done a mistake, learn from it. because now, as i'm riding my life into adulthood, there's more to life than just shopping, mamak sessions and living of my parent's money. i've got to learn to be independent, tough and be smart. IF I WANNA BE BIG, i have to go through the hardest period.

now that i've got bills to pay and soon, more commitments to cover, i can pretty much understand that adulthood is not easy. there'll always be things troubling you: financial problems, relationship downfalls, work politics, you name it and there's definitely one already on the list. no such thing as playing getahs during our recess, or playing fashion consultant for barbies after school. so with this entry, i'll serve it as a reminder to myself to stay strong and although my work can be very taxing, i'll stay on (unless one fine day god decides to make it rain dollars on my doorstep because he has finally realised that i haven't been having a paris hilton life for the past twenty three years). good nite and apologies in advance for the very bible-y long entry that isn't exactly interesting.