July 25, 2005

doubt means dont

hur. my insomnia's getting on my nerves i tell you. im at my wit's end on methods to use to help me sleep. no sleeping pills for me though. i think i need to get drunk to be able to sleep. haha. but the thing is, ive made up some simple rules for myself. no more drinking, no more supper, drink more water and no sugar in coffees i make myself. i need to lose all the extra pounds, you see. which is pretty effective but this is probably because im sick and ive pretty much lost my appetite to eat. ive just weighed myself and i lost 2.5 kg in just one week. madness rite? ive sinned once though, i had supper thanks to sandy for dragging us to this heavily-decorated-with-lanterns-which-she-thought-was-for-sale restaurant at 1am right after one super-ass-numbing-long mamak session. >.> and ever since then, ive been gettin really bad tummy aches. see? punishment for breaking my own rule.

oh, been getting shit loads of nonsensical nightmares lately. here is one example that has occured this morning. i dreamt my kaypoh aunts were questioning me about this site. i was damn clueless and i went like, "huh, how do you know about tickleme.net?". "hooo, think you're so smart eh. well, guess what? it's out in the papers!", replied one of my aunts as she chucked the newspaper with a screenshot of my site onto the table infront of me. i remember squinting my eyes hard trying to read what it said but i guess i was physically so tired i just didnt bother reading. the article consist of many other screenshots and write ups on various other blogs and mine was just a small one, probably to fill up the extra columns. huaaaa, that IS a nightmare, okay. i know some relatives of mine are aware of my site but woa, to have been interrogated by WHAT WERE MY REAL INTENTIONS FOR GOING TO IKEA and stuffs were crap la. that was what happened in the nightmare. the nightmare continued for two hours with other weird ass stuffs before i got up and decided to stop trying to sleep, already. this, is what happens daily. this is how i battle myself to get some sleep. it sucks.

oo, yea, just recalled some snippets of conversations ive had for the past few days.

becks: eh max, you know ronnie has met abe and him. him you know.
ronnieTHEperempuan: eh, i did not meet him la. i just bummmped into him (and boy was he stressing on the BUMPED).
max: woaa, you did? how?
ronnieTHEperempuan: at gym la. by coincidence and i recognised him.
becks: ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww.....
*and i proceeded to cringing my face so hard i swear my whiteheads were popping out of my pores*
ronnieTHEperempuan: oh now you go ewwww all la.. last time ...
*ronnie did some funny facial expressions to emphasize on how i was mad over that someone once*
becks: please, it was a mistake. i was blinded.
ronnieTHEperempuan: yeaaa rite....
becks: eewwwwwwwwwwww.................

becks: terence, you're brilliant! doubt means dont! doubt means dont!
*and i continued chanting that new found mantra terence and i quoted from oprah* (yes, i ACCIDENTALLY watched oprah. sue me)
terence: hehe, i was just quoting from her la.
becks: terence, you're sooo brilliant. i dont care if you dont love me... but i love you!
terence: aww.... you know you'll always be loved
becks: by you?
terence: yes, by me.

my god, it feels soooo goood to know that ive got such a great friend and friends too, of course. *hugs* there are shitloads of other interesting snippets but im too lazy to type it all out. heck, im even too lazy to try and get some sleep. remember kids, doubt is your best friend! tata you all.

Posted by becky at July 25, 2005 11:18 AM

errrr..woh boy! u actually rem the conversation we had in murnis? damn good eh you?

and i love oprahhhh. you don't?

yes i agree to all the DOUBT MEANS DON'T!

<3 yaaa

Posted by: Maxine at July 25, 2005 11:59 AM

hahahahaha yes i do. and you know why. hahahahaha. come on la, the three of us are like the ultimate bitches man. we can talk non stop the whole damn nite! ;D

<33 ya too ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 12:20 PM

doubt means dont??? *confused*..oh btw i heard drinking warm milk can help you to fall asleep easier? worth a try i guess...take care ya ^^ *hugsss*

Posted by: yeeng at July 25, 2005 12:30 PM

that means, if you ever have doubt about something, then DONT do it.

i had so much doubts in the stupid job agency but yet i went on with it, see, now my hard earned money got conned. i damn beh syiok man about that. *sighs*

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 12:41 PM

insomnia suckssssss. T_T

and good friends are the best thing ever. ^_______^


Posted by: Isobel at July 25, 2005 02:28 PM

muahahahaha you and YOUR anime emoticons. >____<

yes. sadly, our mg isnt as close as before. ;\ semua dah busy with own lives. ;\

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 03:17 PM

yeah damn sedih. my whole life is one big sad shit.

Posted by: Maxine at July 25, 2005 05:14 PM

chill max. you'll be fine. you'll cari the right one soon. you have great friends, both in kl and pg and some say phuket. ;D mamak gang, although dah tak close but im sure we will still keep in touch ler. cuma, not as close. last time pool gang also like that ma, then we came back as mamak gang. haha. i hope we dont have to change our name soon again. ;\

say no to ak47 pls. ;\

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 05:51 PM

i know i have friends. i have enough of them.
i want something else.
which obviously i'll never get.
why is god so bad to me?

Posted by: Maxine at July 25, 2005 06:02 PM

max, chill. you must not rush the things you seek. *chewah, sounded damn wise there*

like for me, slumber slumber, IT will come to you. i rushed for a job, in the end i got conned. i rushed to be in a relationship last time, in the end, i got hurt badly. you dont want that do you.

anyways, seriously max, for us, studies come first ler. or, you could try flirting around first but dont expect anything to come out of it, if THATS what you're looking for.

although i dunno if there's god (except for me la that is lol), but if there is one, im sure he has his reasons. dont hurry things k. *muacks* and no, you can NEVER have enough friends.

i dont mean to sound like im lecturing you but im sure you know i love you kan? so do the rest. we say things like that which may be hard to swallow but it's because we care and we love. if we dont, i'll ask you to fuck off dah lama dah. *muacks*

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 06:21 PM

ahhhhh thanks thanks :)

u can always still ask me to fuck off you know. muah ha ha ha

Posted by: Maxine at July 25, 2005 06:25 PM

haha i would like to but i dont wanna risk having my arms "dug" out like daniel's. hahahahahaha. *runs away*

besides, kan orang dah complain we speak too many foul words?

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 06:28 PM

i stop dee.

Posted by: Maxine at July 25, 2005 09:05 PM

*missing ajimal*

Posted by: Bernard at July 25, 2005 09:58 PM

haha okay, besok aku kasi test run maxine. ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 10:31 PM

berd, i thought u said u dun miss ajimal?!!! ho ho ho. sila tinggal di china longer ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 10:32 PM

*missing you*

Posted by: Maxine at July 25, 2005 10:32 PM

miss who? berd or me? :O

must be berd la. his ur suami. siapa lah becky kan? ;(

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 10:38 PM

he IS ur suami i mean. DAMMMMMMMN. me and my damn typos and grammar mistakes! *canes herself silly*

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 10:39 PM

missing me.

Posted by: Bernard at July 26, 2005 12:01 AM

Becks, you've got a point there. The more you go looking for something, the less chances you will have of attaining it. I think I'm going through the same thing now, except I'm not looking for love, I'm looking for employment.

Life is ironic like that. It's just so strange...never undermine how the universe works.

Anyway Max, when the planets are all aligned, you will meet your one true destiny. It's written in the stars!!!

Posted by: bob at July 26, 2005 09:39 AM

berd, she misses me too! :D

yeaaaa... DONT RUSH YOURSELF INTO GETTING A JOB. ive learnt my lesson well. i got conned okay. i was damn silly. *sniffs* in the end, i didnt GET a job and my money back, which was a large amount... to me! :| lol. i like how ur comment ended. ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 26, 2005 10:23 AM

warm milk for the babies..

warm milk + liquor for us!! :D

Posted by: Terence at July 26, 2005 12:19 PM

ais kosong for me pls.

Posted by: Bernard at July 26, 2005 05:10 PM

hahaaha terence, u alkarholik. :D :D :D

berd, dun need. susu budak perempuan negara china cukup :D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 26, 2005 09:43 PM

sherry, aww thanks babes. u always have great advices. love ya loads. :)

Posted by: Maxine at July 27, 2005 12:30 AM

me me? :(

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 27, 2005 11:26 AM

aku jugakkk yang dipersalahhkann tsk tsk tsk

Posted by: SaNdY^dEa at July 27, 2005 11:35 AM

you too becky poo.

Posted by: Maxine at July 27, 2005 12:29 PM

haha sorry la sandy. u tempted us ma. *hugs* where have u been? we couldnt contact u man. ;*(

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 27, 2005 12:55 PM

yeay max. i love u too. *big bear hugs*

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 27, 2005 12:57 PM

I guess counting sheep doesn't help much then...

Posted by: Uncover Japan at July 28, 2005 12:42 AM

woa, i hope ur not a spammer ;\

yes, counting sheep/men/money wont help ;(

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 28, 2005 12:46 AM