July 22, 2005

the unattainable desire

funny isnt it how we human always set goals that are so unattainable. in this case, im refering to choosing our partners.

no, this entry isnt entirely about me but about everyone that i know who is having a hard time in this thing called love. im just speaking in general and it's just a thought so dont shoot me if im wrong here. ive never been in love but that's probably because ive not met the right one. being in many relationships does not make you an expert in love either. ive been in many alright but yet till today, i can tell you i do not know how to define love and will probably never know how love feels just yet.

we girls tend to fall for mr. hardtoget. sometimes we achieve these goals, sometimes we dont. and when we do, we know we'll end up being hurt in the end but no, we still choose to follow this path. this reminds me of a quote from ed, that goes something like this,

"you fall for the bad boys not because they're dangerous, but because you know how things will end"

how true. how so very true. i usually tell people it's because of the challenges it gives you. yes, that's partly it but if anything fails, you have EXPECTED it to happen. then you'll start comforting yourself and say, "hey, you've foreseen this. what's there to sulk and cry about". you then move on and meet another "bad" guy, or someone unachievable and the cycle just keeps repeating.

one more thing that has left me marveling is, why do we always always get those we dont want, and not the ones we want? how ironic, isnt it. when you want something so badly, it's never yours. when you let it go or dont want that something, it's dying for you (im using it here so its easier for me instead of typing he/she and it could also be refering to an object). i guess we all love some sort of attention, eh? and when it stops coming, we are willing to even go down on ours knees and beg for it. i hope im making sense. not feeling too good and im feeling really sorry for this dear friend of mine. i love you, babes, so much. always remember, if all fails, im here for you. *hugs* gtg make a phonecall now. im not good with expressing myself with words (or anything else, for that matter) but i sure hope ive made my point across.

currently listening to: frank sinatra - strangers in the night

Posted by becky at July 22, 2005 03:40 AM

hey babe . your post is fckin true . i feel so enlightened . lol . yes . the ones that are not possible . how true . anyways, u tc alright . x)

Posted by: e.va.n.ge.lin.e at July 22, 2005 07:14 PM

hahahahahaha ur welcome. im glad someone agrees with me. muacks babes. *cuddles*

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 22, 2005 07:37 PM


Posted by: Bernard at July 22, 2005 09:02 PM

oiks berd, are u being sarkastik? later u bosan in china again i wont layan u liaos k. hahaha ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2005 01:23 AM

fraeking true. i think u basically said eveyrthing i felt yesterday. abt NOT getting the ones we want, but getting the ones we DONT want. sighs. i hate life.

/turns into a lesbian

Posted by: Maxine at July 23, 2005 01:24 AM

i damn bosan in china lah..LOL

Posted by: Bernard at July 23, 2005 01:44 AM

yeaaaa... even when there was this once, ive decided to turn lesbo rite, my partner was too good for me and i couldnt do it. i just should stay single. ;( cos i never get the one i want and vice versa. which is why i chose not to like anyone anymore. ;( takut kena hurt once again. ;(

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2005 01:51 AM

lol. eh china a lot of chicks what. a lot of chinkychongs. ngam you. kekeke ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2005 01:52 AM

omg that word is gonna be stucked forever

Posted by: Maxine at July 23, 2005 02:18 AM

hahahahahahahahhahahaa yea man, even ronnie's using it non stop. YOU are such a bad influence. hehehehe.

;D ;D ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2005 02:24 AM

chinky chongs? apa tu?

Posted by: Bernard at July 23, 2005 08:43 AM

hehehehe. i thought u knew liaos? very chinese ed ppl, nicknamed by max ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2005 12:50 PM

i sometimes get what i think i wanted but when i get it.. it wasnt what i really wanted in the first place.. do u get what i mean? :( but ur post is true

Posted by: feryx at July 23, 2005 02:52 PM

Dudettes, what is with all this lovelorn depression? Fret not...even if we never find the elusive love of our lives, there are still many things that we can focus on, like I dunno...artistic pursuits, write the great love novel or whatever. There are times when I believe I have found him but he has not found me because he refuses to look beyond what meets the eye.

I guess ultimately, love isn't really about getting the guy of your dreams. He just has to exist. He need not be yours. But you love him regardless and you only want what's best for him. Even if it means seeing him with another babe but you know that no matter what happens, there was a connection and definitely an attraction and that is all that matters. That it could have happenned, once upon a time and it didn't. Love is tragic that way. Makes it even more beautiful.

Posted by: bob at July 23, 2005 05:53 PM

sabby, yea i get you but that seldom happens. hehe. i dunno. we girls tend to be so fickle yea. thanks for agreeing! :D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2005 07:21 PM

sherry babes, i'll tell you mine when i see you around in msn or when i have an extra credit to call melb again. im not depressed, dont worry. just upset about certain things esp when im left clueless. i shall not speaketh more here. *muacks*

on a brighter note, i lost two kg girls. im so in loveeeee.... with my weighing scale. ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 23, 2005 07:28 PM

i think almost all true love will end in a tragic wway. it will either break a person or make them stronger. soul mates might be the one you married but true is some soul mates are the ones you didn't/couldn't get.

Posted by: shari at July 24, 2005 08:23 PM

haha so if we find "love", and if it's not ours, that's true love? ;\

sighs, i dun think i believe in love to begin with. maybe and probably because ive never been there yet. i might've thought i have but i was wrong. which is why i dont simply say i love you. i cant remember the last time i said it and mean it. it's most prolly filled with doubts the last time i said it. oh boy, im confused myself. ;\

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 24, 2005 08:31 PM

nah, i mean that if you think the person is the ONE then he might be the One..or he might just be replaced with some other guy who walks into ur life.

Posted by: shari at July 24, 2005 08:46 PM

haha my time's not here yet. but yea, hopefully after so SO so darn many failures, yea, maybe mine is around somewhere. ;\

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 24, 2005 09:10 PM

Single guy up for grabs at www.stanch.net
Cheer up la aper nih

Posted by: Ivan at July 24, 2005 10:52 PM

im getting over it already. no worries. hehe. thank you guys for being such a great support. *mwahs*

*grabs an ivan off the shelf*

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 01:12 AM

sigh.. i hate this post in a way..
"you fall for the bad boys not because they're dangerous, but because you know how things will end" <--i hate this most

Posted by: SaNdY^dEa at July 25, 2005 06:49 AM

why? because it's true ke?

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 10:10 AM

freaking true.

Posted by: Maxine at July 25, 2005 12:00 PM

yes becky dearest
tat explains why I or 'we' always fall for the wrong ones

Posted by: SaNdY^dEa at July 25, 2005 12:20 PM

max, it's okay. im okay. hahahahahaha. ;D i lost 2.5kg wei. that's like super chun. marie france also kalah. ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 12:22 PM

sandy, see? we must learn from mistakes. im happy ive done the mistakes ive done. it hurts but you learn to be stronger and wiser.

and no, that still hasnt stopped me from liking bad boys, boys who are mean. but well, just dont fall so easily yet. ;D

Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at July 25, 2005 12:23 PM