June 05, 2004
love does not always travel your way*
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hurrr.... blue is my fav color. blue is how i feel. lalalalala~! yeappie. i hate feeling this way. i dont even know how to describe it. all i know is im not relaxed. my mind refuses to relax! why oh why? im heck too lazy to blog but i thought of re-posting what i posted in my lj. here goes :
"ive been feeling really bluey lately but i guess my physical appearance will not be able to show it. it never did. ive been doing alot of thinking. alot of things have been moving at such a fast pace that i never had the opportunity to just turn back and evaluate things better. and then yesterday, my past came back to haunt me and i hated every bit of it.
i thought things would be okie today after i finally lay myself to rest at 5am. i got up with a very bad backache and my heart felt heavier. i dunno what's wrong and i dunno what i really want in life. at times, i wish for that special someone to be there for me but i always draw myself back whenever we get too intimate. i havent found that person yet but i know he'll be around soon. female instincts, you see. 
there's a question that people usually ask me. what will my "ideal" guy be like? i'll usually answer the same old shit, "taller than me, english literate (has got to speak really good english), confident, doing really well in career, understanding, honest (i dont mind if he's a very frank person though truth can be hurtful at times 
), will never ever cheat on me and loves me for who i am". not too much to ask, isnt it? i want that person to be very focus in life on what he wants therefore if he wants me, he'll try all his best to get me. i dislike guys who gives up instantly. i think i'll even lose my respect on him but er, it depends on what is it he wants lah at times. and to my beloved g.mama, im sorry for what you're going through. love hurts. that's why i never want to get involve in it. *hugs* g.mama 
am currently writing a new song, "love doesnt alway travel your way". kinda stuck on it. oh well, i'll continue after my finals. finals starts on mon. am yet to study. grrrrr.... 
"
sighs. below are some random pix. for fun. im too lazy to even start studying...
my fav banana spread. *nyums*
my fav banana cookies.
my 99.9% fat-free lecka-lecka gelato
mine and joe's 99.9% fat-free lecka-lecka gelato
my fav fruit of all time, the durian!
my durians!
my bouquet of roses my beloved eve mama gave me last year. *hiaks!
my sis's very overgrown one and a half years old tortoise, peeka. i am too lazy to put up boo's pix. X"D
*yawns* and oh, the answer to the mysterious pix :
go figure!
relatives from malacca, (ex) singapore and australia's coming anytime... now. so sleepy. so lazy. all i wanna do is bum bum bum and sleep sleep sleep! and oh, nice meeting you, shari! im off to play more hexic. current highscore = 164,270. anyone wanna challenge? sorry for the long entry. tata.
goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by: deranged berd at June 5, 2004 03:07 PMaiyooooo no motivationnnnnnnnn :(
still busy playing game now :(
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 5, 2004 04:40 PMwhat in the world....?!
i think someone high up above has condemed us from truly being in love! :(
Posted by: Lulianman at June 5, 2004 05:55 PMyea esp since alot of couples are breaking up this year. 2004 isnt a good year for couples or for love. *sighs*
*hugs her lullianman tight*
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 5, 2004 06:28 PMfirst of all...*hugggggieesssss* sorry couldnt help much..:( anyway good luck in ur exams k :)
Posted by: yeeng at June 5, 2004 06:30 PMhahaahah thank u thank u X"D
*feeds u durian*
my unkle brought lychees, 15kgs of durians + 5 kg (20 lah tu), manggis, mangga, wajid and shit loads more. habislah X"D gemuk-fying.
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 5, 2004 06:32 PMhexic...my hgihscore dfor hexic is around 30,000...it stopped bcus i m disconnected from internet...think can challenge u sometimes...hehe^^
good luck for ur exam becky ..
n yeeng too^^
hahaha apria, no probs. come come challenge me after my finals. lol X"D
thanks apria. *hugs*
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 5, 2004 09:09 PMgood luck ya!!
u really love banana eh?
hehe.. hey whats wrong with jo? ;(
heheehehe yea i do. but only after durians!!!! :P
thanks for ur good wishes.
g.mama? hmmm X"D
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 5, 2004 11:39 PMhmmmm lulians pressed against me.. mmmmm!
Posted by: Lulianman at June 6, 2004 02:12 AMi will challenge u next weekend...
:P
have exam too^^
lullianman, i know you want moreeee X"D~
apria, haha ok ok. gambate-o!
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 6, 2004 07:14 PMeeks durians
you can have all the durians my mom forcing me to eat. i hate durians =(
Posted by: Jinny at June 6, 2004 09:51 PMomgggggggg jinny wasted... durian rox! *dances around carrying durians*
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 6, 2004 11:41 PMGo study or be tickled!
Posted by: Chocobo Exarch at June 7, 2004 09:21 AMmana ada orang forcefeed wan..durians even.. lolx
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......~!
Posted by: jean` at June 7, 2004 10:11 AMhahaah shen, believe it or not, till exam day also never study. just finished my almost 3 hours long paper. pheeew :P
jean, lawak lah. MAKAN DURIAN!!!! nyums. baru habis makan durian :P
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 7, 2004 03:00 PMHaha! You forgot that banana ice blended juice!!
Posted by: BtLeJuiCe at June 7, 2004 06:58 PMrelaxnye becky.. aku takut lar ni!! ;(
ape lawak sangat ni?
hahahaa i wanted to put lor but then takde the gambar, so cant :( next time we go, we take the pix lah. lol X"D
jean, nothing is lah. haha. tapi aku stress dengan exam. that's why :P
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 7, 2004 09:42 PMI want durians too...and hey...it IS eyelids isnt it? Doesnt that mean i get a free drink??? 0.o
Posted by: `JoLyNe at June 7, 2004 11:37 PMheck...everyone's addicted to Hexic, so am I..daymn...I love durians..the other day my dad went all the way to Raub and got 30 durians for such a low price coz it was direct from the orchard...slurpss..i miss 'em
Posted by: SK at June 8, 2004 12:17 AMewwww. banana spreadd?!?! :O
eheheh
eh. got banana cookies too! :O
mm but durians are okie. :P
Posted by: lizzie at June 8, 2004 02:41 AMall the best beckylicious!! *hugsie till you cant breathe* :D
Posted by: lizzie at June 8, 2004 02:42 AMhahahaha g.mama, u want free drink ah? ok ok. ais limau on me. muehehehee. yeaps eye lids :P and i didnt know u love durians too?! haha. WEEEE X"D
sk, where's raub? haha. my unkle got from some ulu place, rm1 per kg but the flesh is sooo good. he got 15kg :P
lizzie, where can u not like bananas? think of men. nyumsss :P hahahah thank u thank u :P
hehehe - dont study ..
just lepak
DURIAN EEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!
Posted by: Ivan at June 9, 2004 10:39 AMomg i screwed up the layout a lil lol!
Posted by: Ivan at June 9, 2004 10:40 AMlizzie, oh please dont die yet. hahaha. i still wanna lepak with u :P
dale, exam sudah over pun lor. dah habis liao :P
ivan, yeaaaaaaaaa damn u! durian shake on u X"D
Posted by: tIcKLe`Me at June 9, 2004 12:03 PM