it’s never like me to bring up personal matters into a public space. although this is MY blog, but it’s still a public space.

i don’t think i’ve ever been so lost before. this is probably the biggest crossroad i got myself stuck in. i was to visit US/Canada end april or early may but since that plan is likely not happening due to unforeseen circumstances, im stuck.

sure, sometimes i like doing things spontaneously but when it comes to life changing decisions, i dont want to be spontaneous about it. i have way too many commitments to just say, “fuck it!” and do the things i wanna do. that’s what growing up does to you.

*inserts big fat sigh*

oh how i wish some people can handle things more responsibly, and less cowardly. i guess the only thing that can change for the better is myself. i need to toughen myself up after letting my guard down too low. here’s to a better 2014, people!