it has been exactly a month now. i don’t exactly know what i feel except i do constantly wish i have answers to so many things.
i just got back from my 8 days break from lombok/gili trawangan. that was insanely amazing! i couldn’t have had a beach holiday at a much more perfect timing than this.
anyway, to you, ysb, i hope this is just a phase and i wish you all the best in whatever you’re going through. xx
it’s never like me to bring up personal matters into a public space. although this is MY blog, but it’s still a public space.
i don’t think i’ve ever been so lost before. this is probably the biggest crossroad i got myself stuck in. i was to visit US/Canada end april or early may but since that plan is likely not happening due to unforeseen circumstances, im stuck.
sure, sometimes i like doing things spontaneously but when it comes to life changing decisions, i dont want to be spontaneous about it. i have way too many commitments to just say, “fuck it!” and do the things i wanna do. that’s what growing up does to you.
*inserts big fat sigh*
oh how i wish some people can handle things more responsibly, and less cowardly. i guess the only thing that can change for the better is myself. i need to toughen myself up after letting my guard down too low. here’s to a better 2014, people!
it still hurts.
it has been eleven days, but the pain has not stopped.
i wish he knows how much he’s hurting me but i guess sometimes, it’s better to know now than later (CLICHE, i know, but it’s somehow true).