Monthly Archives: January 2011

11.1.11

11.1.11

how not to feel obligated to write and post an entry on such a beautiful day with a beautiful date?
fifth day in shanghai and loving it. honestly, i think i can survive here if i knew the language. the weather is a little too cold for my liking that it hurts to even be standing outdoors for mere seconds but i think if i were to actually settle down here, i would be much more prepared so that isnt actually a problem.
i have an incredible best friend here in shanghai. despite barely knowing each other for just a few days, my best friend has been keeping me warm and making sure i am feeling comfortable with my surrounding. oh, how i love you, the lovely heater!



my best friend, teehee!

shanghai from my balcony. such a pretty city it is, indeed!

me in a jacket with faux fur. everything in china is furry when it’s winter…

everything here is furry, including the toilet seats!

it’s our last day of shoot. let’s hope we get to wrap early so i can do some long overdue shopping. see ya guys back home real soon! i’m going to miss shanghai, really. such a beautiful city, it is. like what i told liz, despite the language barrier, i am actually in love with this city.

shanghai in a nutshell.

shanghai in a nutshell.

shanghai is such a pretty metropolitan city, and things would’ve been prettier if you speak, read and write mandarin.
ive never felt so useless in my life before, what more when i’m here for work. i think the locals here, especially the clients, thinks im a snob, or deaf and dumb because i can’t speak mandarin.


me, with like 5-6 layers of clothes and jackets. quite an experience.

me in the midst of a shoot in shanghai, obviously underdressed for -1 degrees.

shanghai somehow has the best sunrise, sunset and SUN altogether. never seen a sun this pretty (although it’s not really justified in this photo).

something i find quite peculiarly interesting. meat drying in the middle of the street.

the weather here is definitely one you need to experience if you’ve never been to anywhere cold. it was -1 degrees yesterday. here i am surrounded by heater but yet my hands are icy cold and my knees are freezing right to the bones.
three more days to pretend im deaf and dumb. it’s not a good feeling. i mean i have so much to say but yet, nobody actually listens to you if you speak anything other than mandarin. proud that i understood 70% of the ppm, just not very proud to be mandarin-disabled. i definitely would like to return here again, but maybe when i’m armed with the capability to speak and understand mandarin much better. lovely city, just not really prepared for it just yet.
p/s: okay, there’s one thing that irks me big time in china. THE FACT THAT 70% OF THE SITES I RELY ON ARE FREAKING BANNED! facebook, youtube, imageshack, twitter, foursquare, blogspot, google (it keeps telling you it’s down. it works at times, and doesnt most of the time), and mainly anything that has to do with communication with the outside world. i’ve never felt so deprived before!

heavy flow of emotions.

heavy flow of emotions.

here i am at 2:10am, juggling between so much work load and half packed luggages.
i’m not feeling too good. in fact, it’s suddenly hitting me. the reality.
i wish i could just ignore this feeling but there are just way too much emotions flowing through right now. no teary eyes, but just, wow, a huge ouch.

上海,我来了!♥

上海,我来了!♥

i’m flying to SHANGHAI tomorrow for shoot!
and i can hopefully take all these disturbing thoughts off my head.
i heard it’s going to be freezing cold there, so yay. finally experiencing winter for the first time… like a virgin! hehe.
to those who stuck by me, thank you and i love you. to those who ditched me when i needed you most, well, it was nice knowing you.

A dear god letter.

A dear god letter.

Dear God,
I’ve worked so hard and prayed just as hard, and although I’ve got a long way more, please let this childhood dream of mine come true. I promise I will be eternally grateful even if things don’t work out!
I have lost almost everything that I have ever been grateful about yet I don’t blame anyone for it. Oh please, just hear me out and let THIS plan work out for me.
Constantly thinking of you although I don’t show it,
Becky.