need another break. but not because of work. loving the fact that i can barely have time to catch a breath because of work. but the people that surrounds me out of my working space drowns me. i try not to let it bother me that much, but sometimes, you just can’t. no matter how hard you try.
it’s 20.10.2010. it’s a good date. i hope it’s a good day for me too. *keeps fingers crossed*
yeaps. learning how to let go. not easy, definitely a challenge. but i know i can. cos i’m great in that way. im always determined, and i never give up. i love being me. these are the characteristics that people love about me.
i no longer want to be lost. and have my goals in life drifted away because of people or situations that doesn’t deserve to even be part of me. i am not suppose to be effected by all this. i won’t give in to all these nuisance distractions any longer. goodbye, you undeserving things.
oh btw, you gotta check out josh rouse. such a brilliant singer-songwriter. i am hearting him!
wish i didn’t go digging out my past. wish i didnt know the things i knew. wish i would just let go for good.
someone, please just cleanse my mind of all these awful memories.
i need to really just move on completely.
from everyone and everything from before. from the past.
i just don’t want to dwell in all this anymore. god, i beg you.
i can’t take this torment no more. maybe if i could, i would erase people from my present too. i just want a fresh start.
is that too much to ask for?
im writing because it’s a good date to not miss writing on. 10.10.10. if only my life is a perfect 10. suzie broke down on me at sunway pyramid’s carpark. i think im going to be spending a bomb trying to fix it. there goes my mountain bike budget. *sighs* but that’s life, isnt it?
i cant help but wonder, why do people practice infidelity? does it not matter anymore that the mechanics of two people being in a relationship together should only be between two people?
it saddens me that sometimes people are still together just for the sake of the kids, or the marriage that they no longer believe in.
why not just end it? why hurt your partners even more by cheating behind their backs?
sighs. there is no longer such a thing as a perfect love. or has it, ever, existed?
beckiskii011010. it has been five great adventurous years, sharing our ups and downs together. thank you for bearing with all my nonsense, bii. thank you for tolerating all of my tantrums. and thank you for loving me just the way i am. you’re the greatest!
you’ll always be in my heart, bii. you’re one of a kind. i love you!