(/edited) @ 12:24am; 28.11.07

YOU GUYS SOOOOO MUCH WATCH ‘ACROSS THE UNIVERSE‘!!!
… or it’s a sin and a huge regret you’ve gotta live with for the rest of your life. such an avant-garde it was. so beautifully directed, choreographed & executed. although in short, i can say that it’s like watching a two hour long video clip, where every damn cast was high on some kinda dope. ironically, it’s definitely one of a kind. every person i asked was in love with it. if you love singing in the rain & mary poppins when you were growing up, i freaking assure you, that you’ll love this (times) ten (times) infinity. and yes, duh, it’s a musical, if you didn’t know that already. AND, inspired by the BEATLES. everyone in the damn show sings so well although there were certain bits that reminisces me of westlife, ronan keating & take that. very creatively done. hooray to musicals! and to you people who don’t appreciate musicals, maybe the naked scene and the underwear galore in the water scene might trigger your interest. i would’ve shared the love with you all if i had known that mark had at least 25 more extra free tickets. whoops!
that aside, i can’t believe my parents just buzz me at 3pm today to tell me they’ve suddenly decided to go to taiping, (which for those of you who are not familiar, a small secluded down up north in perak that serves glorious good food at the price of almost nothing) and were already there.
“eeevvveryyybodyyyyy needs a little time awayyyyy… i’ve heard her say…… even lovers need a holiday oooOOoohHHhh….” those first few lines of az yet’s hard to say i’m sorry just keeps ringing in my head. i NEED a damn break. a holiday. into a faraway land. or at least, a faraway drive from the city. and crazy calls that makes you swear like you’re reciting some mantra to call off the rain ala the rain witchdoctor we hire for shoots. believe it or not, EVEN MY DOG WENT FOR A HOLIDAY! *tsk* YES, STONEY IS HAPPILY RELAXING IN TAIPING. while all my family left me were black & jack, my gerbils. how thoughtful. but such is life. and if you’re planning to cheer me up, maybe this will cheer me up. no wait, it WILL definitely cheer me up. and keep me satisfied until at least, when my bii comes back from melbourne (which is another two week’s time). he hasn’t left but he will soon. so yea. my boyfriend & my dog’s off for holiday. & my family. & the many of millions out there. okay, i think i’ve whined too much so before i call it a night, go freaking watch across the universe and get me the damn ost as a consolation. vi voglio bene.
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hello, ohaiyo gozaimasu. it’s such a beautiful monday morning, no? i’m feeling really contented at the moment because of the great shopping experience i had yesterday. my whole idea of a relaxing sunday was ruined while napping because of all the work related calls. shopping was the only solution and tah-dah, my bii reluctantly brought me to pyramid, where i share a love-hate relationship with. the new wing was really impressive and in just a couple of hours, i’ve bought eight tops, two pouches, a pair of sandles, make up & a bling-bling belt. i’m so into gold right now. so if you’re wondering what to get me for christmas, something gold would be perfect. and i think it’s coincidental because next year happens to be the year of the golden rat in the chinese zodiac calendar. or was that back in 1984? either way, i’m in love with gold! gold is soOoo the new black. i actually had the privilege of saying, “i can’t decide. i hate to choose. GET BOTH!”. but of course, i was not happy with the amount of money i spent but it was good. retail theraphy rocks.
another month before i’m off for malacca for my cousin’s wedding (which really, isnt really exactly an idea of a holiday but i guess any time off’s bound to be good, no?). no photos for the time being until i get myself photoshop. my life’s MEANINGLESS without photoshop. anyone wants to get me cs3 for christmas? back to work. we need more people in our company. anyone interested? buzz me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAXINE, TERENCE, GARICK, GERALD, ABE & TICKLE-ME.NET!!!
so sedap. six birthdays in a row. and i’m sure there’s more but until i can remember the rest, happy birthday you six! *big bear hugs for all* may you all find partners soon to *unf* *unf* with & shower you with lotsa tlc (abe’s exceptional though). LOL. ahh… i will catch up with you all soon. and yes, tickle-me.net is now FOUR YEARS OLD! i’ve just renewed my domain name till 2009 and unfortunately, for a higher price! blahs, and because of that, anyone wants to sponsor me a domain with my name on it? i’m exhausted after four hours of laughing hysterically at nailis. ah… talking about the good old moments and how bad i was at serving the shuttlecock during badminton games back in my primary school days. and how we used to carry food baskets around proudly like as though they were LV bags. good old times. worth the talk and time spent reminiscing it. thanks max, li shih, tchen shun & special guest, iskii. i’ll talk later. losing my voice and my capability to concentrate typing since it’s already 3:38am. enjoy the snap shots while i, go change my bed sheets (yes, at 3:38am) because i’m obsessed with my sheets. oh, need to change the towel too. sweeeet! toodles & tatayoung, people!





(/edited) @ 12:25pm; 18.11.07
i saw the latest *censored* car model a couple of nights ago when they were bringing it in into my studio. completely top secret & what nots. it will be launched in a couple months time and i tell you, if the price is what we’re expecting it to cost, it is a MUST grab! it looks like a cross-breed of two models but it’s excellent. except for the interior. but you’ll see it for yourselves, sometime next year i hope. I HATE IT WHEN I KNOW A SOMETHING GREAT and i have to keep it a secret. but I LOVE IT that i get to find out a lot of things before they were actually launched. don’t you? and if you want to be part of that GROUP who gets to see stuffs WAY before the rest do, come join my studio. we’re looking for account executive and/or acc. manager (client servicing department), producers, assistant photographers, driver, receptionist & etc. we basically have a lot of vacancies since we’ve expanded internationally. great opportunity to travel, people to meet, things to be learned & explored. just leave a comment or email me. or if you know my number, buzz me. i love sharing the joy & love with others.
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i could still remember my first few days in peter & jane kindergarten, kangar, perlis. yes, i was a kampung girl, growing up surrounded by paddy fields. oh, those carefree days i’ve had. you know, i had this really good guy buddy back then, ali, who would run around the housing area naked. it was fun. but that aside, back in kindy, i was the tallest there (what’s new, really?) and i was the only one without uniform around because wearing it would be like wearing a super-mini dress. and i’m sure back then showing off your buttocks weren’t sexy to these pre-puberty kids. i was really skinny back then but height was already an issue. i remember myself as someone very talkative, very expressive. my teacher would be so annoyed, she’d pull my long ponytail. i’ve always, always been very talkative so it came to no surprise to my teachers and classmates then when i was asked to tell what my ambition was. being someone in the entertainment industry. because my mouth can never shut up.
many years down the road, my ambition never really swung very far away from there. i wanted to be a fashion designer, a singer, a song composer, an actress, a director. whatever that was related (except for fashion designing, of course). notice how it always falls towards the creative side. but i ended up in pure science stream anyway when i was in highschool because the arts stream was completely crap. ECONOMICS were considered as part of the art stream. so was ACCOUNTS. like, hello? i don’t see a relevance here but since our education system was irrelevant, i might as well be going to what people perceive as the ‘stream with the better future’.
as expected, i sorta wasted two years studying physics, add maths, biology & chemistry. the interest was not there, so regardless of how damn interesting it might be to some people, it wasn’t to me most of the time. i would skip classes and dream of making it big someday. i wasn’t really the most useful & productive student around but i’ve managed to pull it through the last couple of years in highschool, scoring mainly in languages (again, because i love speaking and it seems relevant, no?). i was the president of our school choir club for a couple of years, and had also won the best actress award in our inter-form competition and also in debates. BECAUSE, if i haven’t already stressed it enough, i love to talk and be expressive.

after spending four & a half years studying on advertising & film, i graduated with a diploma & bachelor’s degree. and am currently working as a line producer in a renown commercial photography studio (or some call them as still production houses). i’ve been there a month’s short from a year. i’ve met so many people from the advertising industry & have learnt about the struggles of being in the industry the hard way. i’ve had the passion for advertising ever since college but is this what i really want? i want to be able to be recognised for my abilities; talents. i’ve traveled as far as india to perform stage dramas. i’ve won awards in college. and i’m used to being able to express myself through my work in college. so by being a still photography producer, there really isn’t much space where your creativity is allowed to be explored. because those who decide are the art directors & the photographers. we’re merely the middle person. like account servicing in advertising agencies. you don’t get recognition from the industry. NOBODY WILL GO, “HEY, THE BEST ACCOUNT SERVICING PERSON IN THE WORLD IS … “. you get what i mean?
so right now, i’m stuck. for i do not know what can i be? it is not that my job sucks. it’s really interesting. but it’s about following your dreams, as cliche as that might sound, it’s true. but what can i be? being twenty-three is TOO OLD in the entertainment industry. i am too old to be a singer because my breasts cannot compete with the perkiers ones like the teenage singers around. and i’m not skinny. people judge you on your outlooks before talent. a fatty like me is judge as a klutz & a glutton, that’s a definite. it’s harsh but it’s not a lie. and it’s the same for the rest of the other ambitions i’ve mentioned earlier. maybe a radio dj, but can i really pull it? do i have enough things to say to entertain people for hours? i can do it during yum cha sessions & parties, but talking to an empty room full with buttons and a mic doesn’t seem that easy. and it’s killing me inside to know that i can never live my childhood dream. but c’est la vie. that’s life. however, i hope that someday, i will be getting credits for what i do best. yakking & being able to express myself (and some say eating too). to all those who are facing the same dilemma as me, not knowing where your future lies and am still trying to pursue your dreams, here’s a *toast* to us.