Monthly Archives: May 2007

shopping’s fun until the bill comes.

shopping’s fun until the bill comes.

in just a matter of two weekends, i’ve spent hundreds of dollars just on shopping and another few hundred just on food. i just had one of the craziest morning ever and what more, it’s a freaking monday. my mind’s just screaming, “GIVE ME A BREAK, PLEASE!“. the shopping was seriously a good way to release all unwanted stress but when you go home and check on your wallet and the balance on your atm machine, that’s another additional stress.
i was at the fj benjamin warehouse sales yesterday and i paid only rm120 for what was worth at least RM605. the brands that were available yesterday were raoul, guess, gap, la senza and nautica, if im not mistaken. as we were heading back to our car after dinner, we passed by this really cool seventies concept store and ended up buying six tees in which we got discounts as well. the day before, i splurged on accessories and a velvet evening gown with sequins. the weekend before that, i bought tops, a wallet, make up and more shoes. i know this whole shopping thing is going to take its toll on me soon but i just cannot help me. whenever im really upset or just feeling stressed out, i need to shop to comfort myself. it works alright but when reality sets in and you calculate the bills, you’re just digging a bigger hole for yourself.
anyways, two colleagues of mine that i love hanging out will be leaving this week. another has a left a couple of weeks ago. and my friend will be joining me end of this week. there are so many peeps that come and go in this office and i just hate it when someone leaves. especially those that i’ve bonded in these past couple of months. i am so going to miss you guys.
and oh, last friday, i had the privilege to choose between attending the miss malaysia world finals or go partying at peter pan’s showcase. and i chose peter pan cause we were also supposed to go for a tea session with them after the showcase as they’ve been flirting with a colleague of mine ever since they had their photoshoot with us. but anyway, it was a fun night. peter pan’s seriously talented. they got me addicted! the front man seriously looks a lot like fon fon boy. soooo kewt la. okay, back to work. toodles!

oh no, not the ‘W’ word again!

oh no, not the ‘W’ word again!

i’m glad most of you could relate to my previous entry. and i’m thankful that i wrote that entry. because for the past few days, i was still questioning myself if i’m willing to sacrifice my social life (which was a lot, back then) and that entry definitely served as a good reminder on why i’m still sticking to it (my job). i’ve been feeling really pressured to perform lately and the more i want to do things right, the more mistakes i tend to make. weirdly enough, my mistakes come in chains. happening one after another and seriously, i just so wanna slap myself hard on the face for making them.
i know my entries lately might be hard to relate for those still studying but i’m sure most of you who are currently working to survive (especially if you’re in the advertising or production industry), you could relate well. please bare with all my work talk because seriously, at the moment, all i can think about are work related stuffs. have i done this? have i checked that? should i find alternatives? thisthatthisthatthisthatthisthatthisthat. the hardest bit of my job is you have to be very attentive, well alert, good at finding solutions and resources as well as negotiating. fuck one thing up and you’re fucked. oh, and it seems that it’s customary in my agency to swear and speak out loud. throw your manners away because apparently in this industry, it’s never appreciated and people see you as weak if you don’t demand for things nor speak out loud and swear. so, i have been told. hmmm… interesting. no, i’m not being sarcastic. it is real, to a certain degree. i might not agree to it and like how rowdy and rude things can get but hey, that’s life. there’s never something that pleases you all the time. be prepared, all you lil kids out there, still relying on text books to succeed in your studies because this, will be what you have to go through once you’re out from your bright-graffiti-painted-walled schools with tiny little wooden chairs & tables, your lil comfort zone.
ok, enough of work related talks already, i guess. let’s see… i got sunburnt yesterday, during my outdoor shoot. oh wait, shoot (pun intended)! i’m talking about work again. *presses on the delete button*
uhm, right. so, how should i start. if it should not be “W” related, what else should i talk about? *ponders*
*ponders again*
*drums fingers*
*uhms, looks left, looks right*
oh! you know what? NOTHING!. because my whole damn life revolves around work. blahs. i’ll post some photos instead i guess, when i’m free. i am so damn lifeless. lol. but work keeps me occupied and expands my knowledge and experiences. work is good. work is GOOD! toodles!

riding my life into adulthood.

riding my life into adulthood.

i could’ve sworn that it was just months ago when i was still in school uniform, with my hair tied neatly into braids of two. and there was this huge pressure to perform in spm (actually, that’s not true la because i never believed in our education system but somehow, till today, i get nightmares of my spm days) because the world judges you on how well you perform during your spms. not to mention how scholarships in colleges and universities depends on it as well.
but in actual fact, it has already been six years since i left highschool which has embossed a whole lot of memories. the good, the bad & the evil. and i remember how excited i was, knowing i’ll be going to luct to further my studies, believing that someday, i’ll make it big in the industry. because i was overconfident by the awards and random competitions that i’ve been receiving & participated. i guess now, i could tell that i was pretty much pampered and thought college life has taught me enough about life and provided me with the substantial expectations for life’s biggest challenge: adulthood & working life.
so swoosh passed four and a half years and i’m finally a graduate, armed with a bachelor’s degree in mass communication (woa, is that a standing ovation im hearing? lol, don’t mind my sarcasms) and a diploma in advertising, multimedia & broadcasting. then it was time to look for a job. something i’ve been looking forward to for a very very long time. i mean after all the big dreams and hopes i’ve set for myself, i was getting all enthusiastic about starting work.
job hunting session began. i turned down a few job interviews and attended some. got my first job but it sucked because it wasnt what i wanted and the company decided to change it’s objectives & goals. so i left, even after one of the partners persuaded me because i felt that a company of four was too small for me to grow further. then i started going for interviews in multi-national companies but i flunked it because i was just too nervous, obviously not very prepared for sudden short-noticed interviews. and i set my eyes on a particular company and told myself, i’m going to get this job, by hook or by crook. sure enough, i got it. and that’s where i am now. the beginning of a true career, working in, quoting my colleague, “a land of many opportunities”.
this job is fun, challenging, demanding and everything i am prepared for. sure, there are many issues happening lately but seriously speaking, don’t all companies have got their own issues? yes, my pay is way below any of my friends but i guess, whether i like to admit it or not, i am still too raw. being a fresh graduate, i still have a lot to learn about the cruel industry. if i don’t like someone, suck it in. if i’ve done a mistake, learn from it. because now, as i’m riding my life into adulthood, there’s more to life than just shopping, mamak sessions and living of my parent’s money. i’ve got to learn to be independent, tough and be smart. IF I WANNA BE BIG, i have to go through the hardest period.
now that i’ve got bills to pay and soon, more commitments to cover, i can pretty much understand that adulthood is not easy. there’ll always be things troubling you: financial problems, relationship downfalls, work politics, you name it and there’s definitely one already on the list. no such thing as playing getahs during our recess, or playing fashion consultant for barbies after school. so with this entry, i’ll serve it as a reminder to myself to stay strong and although my work can be very taxing, i’ll stay on (unless one fine day god decides to make it rain dollars on my doorstep because he has finally realised that i haven’t been having a paris hilton life for the past twenty three years). good nite and apologies in advance for the very bible-y long entry that isn’t exactly interesting.

the orloffs’ wedding dinner.

the orloffs’ wedding dinner.

i just got back from my first ever friend’s wedding about a couple of hours ago. it was nice finally meeting people i’ve known or heard about over the net since the nineties. i was also expecting to meet up with abe & joe but abe couldn’t get leave and joe was still stuck in amsterdam with his girlfriend. but i had fun. it was a simple chinese wedding (the jewish wedding was held back in september) and i met some unexpected people, which was awesome. and then there were an exchange of gossips on other irc-ers with their current ‘dramas’ and updates. a lot have changed, some married, some even with kids and some’s gone. time sure flies and it’s gatherings like that, that i’ll keep looking forward to, to update and learn about each other’s life because there’s no longer irc to fall back onto. cheers, peeps. i’m worn out from today’s activities. toodlelings.

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p/s: for more photos, click here. i’ll be back with random updates when i feel more refreshed. it’s freaking 4.27am in the morning now. *yawns*