my mommy’s gone to bangkok again. i miss her, i really do. i just have so many things to tell her. mommy, please come back home soon.
(/edited) @ 1:36am, 1.05.07

happy 19th monthliiversarii, bii!!!

yay, we’ve been together for 19th months but it sure feels like it has been forever. ai steal worf yew, biibiiniikins! my mom’s back from bangkok and she did a lot of shopping. i got a new bag, a new skirt, some accessories and random stuffs. i love gifts! but don’t we all? lol. btw, exactly a year ago, sp and i dropped by at a thai buddhist temple to learn how to pai pai (pray) , in order to show our respects in conjunction with wesak day. and i remembered having banana leaf rice at paandis right after that. iskii and i still remembered what i was wearing and i could actually remember the bra i wore that day. if only my memory were this good at studies. tee hee. im off. super da tired. it’s baking and cooking day for me tomorrow as i’ve not been into the kitchen for months! toodles!
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(/edited) @ 7:38pm, 28.04.07
everyone’s unhappy with how things are. with how things are changing 180 degrees in just a matter of one month. and i’ve been hearing so many tales aboutit that it gets pretty demotivating at times. but because i still love what i do, i’ll stick and be tough. it’s never easy looking for money anyway. like what the chinese would say, we’re just tiny little tah kong chais (employees, i think). this sentence is probably the most i’ve spoken about work and it’s wise if i do not proceed further. you’ll never know how people might find you on google. google is dangerous.
my mommy will be back today. hooray! i hope we could do alisara for dinner again one of these days. i miss the damn good food from there but be warned, you might have to wait up till two hours just to be able to eat. business IS that good. my mom’s going to bosnia in a couple of months, together with my dad if im not mistaken. i wish i could be travelling around with my parents too. getting into adulthood is never easy. i miss my schooling days. my dad’s thinking of asking me to go do my masters while i’m young. should i? hrmphs. i guess i have this weekend to think about it since i do not need to work tomorrow. toodles!
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(/edited) @ 8.35pm, 21.04.07

i’m seriously not happy with certain things right now. but because i have tolerance, i will tolerate and wait. i cannot stand ungrateful and non-tactful people. one day, they will lose out. you’ll see. oh, btw, i won’t be going to genting anymore because the lack of producers in my company. and luckily for tomorrow’s shoot, i do not need to be there at 6am. phew, tiring. hopefully this is a new way to lose weight. lol. and i’m thinking of buying an european car below rm100k. any good suggestions? till then, i’m off. just got back not too long ago and my bed’s calling out to me. yums!
p/s: i think bald guys are sexy. even more when they can sing well. and i currently have the hots for this dude. double yums! oh oh, and there’s good charlotte just right infront of my house singing, keep your hands off my girl. i love living infront of a stadium. free live music, anytime. just when you taught life’s starting to head downhill. rock on!
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(/edited) @ 20.04.07
lol, i bought a pair of gerbils for my dad, to be placed into the large rodent tank i got from maxine (after a particular accident, ahem). i’m calling them black & jack, for obvious reasons. they’re both black. one thing though, i thought the tank came with a water bottle but it doesn’t so i’ll have to rush and get one tomorrow. more updates tomorrow. it has been an unpleasant day today. toodles!
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thank you, danke schoen, for all the well wishing. but me, being the world’s 2nd largest procrastinator (1st prize goes to iskii, of course), have yet to pay the dr. tetek a visit. and the workload’s piling without a warning but no complains yet, so far. oddly though, i feel drenched and exhausted although i haven’t really been moving around. i never knew sitting my large ass on the my rotatable armchair for almost twenty hours can make your legs ache and be weak. it’s amazing what we learn on a daily basis. lol. anyway, today’s an important day that i almost forgot about…
HAPPY 55th BIRTHDAY DADDY!
may your 55th birthday mark a memorable day for us all. oh, and btw, i won’t be around for five days. i’ll be in genting for a 5 days shoot. wish me all luck. everyone has warned me about more tiring days to come. but being becky, all i have to say is… “BRING IT ON, BABY!”

i’ve always felt a sharp pain on my right breast. and if you remember well from last year’s series of surgeries that i’ve gone through, i’ve also had difficulties breathing and major chest pains. there HAS always been something wrong with me. i dont think i can EVER be fixed. last year has probably cost my dad’s company more then tens of thousands from the five – six months ordeal and this time, i’m afraid, history will have to repeat itself.
back to my right breast, the pain was pretty consistent but i was constantly ignoring it. “THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY BREAST!” i’ll keep repeating it like a mantra. as you all know, i love my breasts and it’s probably the only thing valuable in this whole tub of lard body of mine so i treasure them. like, really, truly, treasure them. anyway, i felt lumps in both my breasts yesterday. i told my mom about it and she too, felt the lumps.
panic strikes! and somehow, the pain just seems more obvious lately. i know i should go for a check up, but i’m just, sick of going in and out of the hospital. maybe, maybe it’s nothing. but what if it’s something? that’ll lead to another and another. like last year?! you know, it’s like as though god’s enjoying this little game of me, going in and out of the hospital. almost like sex. in, out. in, out. well, thank you, god. bring it on! it’s probably karma from my previous life. i wouldn’t know but anyhow, let’s just hope these lumps aren’t serious. no wait, let’s just hope, i’m actually going to drag myself to the hospital again. i’m sick of x-rays, operating theatres, needles and endless medications. but if these is somehow going to pay back for all my wrong doings of the past, i’ll go through it. hmm.. looks like i still have a lot of strength in me. lol.
i know im rambling, but really, my mind’s divided into thousands of thoughts and directions. what if questions are popping non stop. but like the old saying goes, que sera sera. whatever will be, will be. if things goes on to the negative side, i’ll have to pass my tetek queen title to someone else. you can only enjoy life, to a certain limit. let’s toss to what’s left of it. toodles!
p/s: i scratched dennis’ bumper today, quite badly i would say. it’s time for me to get a new car since my bro just got his a couple of days ago. no fair! i want one too! *pouts* oh, and i just joined some facebook thingy and it had automatically sent out invitations to everyone i’ve ever emailed to. if you like multiply, you might like this. it’s a cross between friendster & multiply. do add me if you’re in. tatayoung!
ps/s: my mom told me to accompany her to bangkok for some major shopping session end of this month, but i guess, i’ve gotta skip it if i’m going to genting for work and it isnt even confirmed yet. blehs, this sucks! happy shopping in bangkok once again!
happy birthday, isobel, you small small girl!

(/edited) @ 2.03am, 08.04.07

happy easter, people!
i’ll be attending a JEWISH wedding next month and you bet i’m looking forward to it. like, seriously, how many jewish wedding have you heard about in malaysia, a muslim country? zilch? nada? elek pochik? indeed!



anyways, do check my multiply regularly as i’ve got shit loads of photos to be uploaded. i’ve finished editing two albums and i’m too dang lazy to continue thanks to my dying pc monitor. it just keeps blacking out every five mins and i definitely do not have the patience to keep editing on a black screen. you know, i’m actually trying to recall what else have i said because when i was editing this post earlier, my damn firefox hanged halfway. anyway, i’m freaking sleepy because i got up at five thirty in the morning today and it’s already close to two fifteen in the morning. AND the bloody good dinner i had just now (that made my mum squeal in joy) isnt helping much either because it’s just making me sleepier. despite being rm140 poorer, it’s freaking worth the price but i’ll get to that later. i’m off now. you take care and have a good easter!
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you know, i think malaysians ought to learn some manners. seeing how RUDE and DISRESPECTFUL our youngsters are these days is a sad sight. or maybe, you could blame it on my parents for bringing me up TOO FINE, for teaching me how to respect people and to be polite to others. tsk, shame on you, F.A! and you should really start looking into the mirror, you, pot calling the kettle black! look at the way msians drive. it’s just freaking annoying. nobody queues for traffic lights anymore and the signal has lost its’ purpose. *TSK*, indeed.
that aside, me, being someone who was an anti mcdees during my highschool days, ive been feeding on it ever since i dated the *ahem* *spotlights*, son of our local mcdees founder. or, could it be sandy who was constantly brainwashing me with all her “how mcdees is good for you” or “oh GAWD, i lurrrrrrveeee mcdees” talks. she also made me joined the kid’s club for heaven’s sake! but anyways, i realise mcdee’s prices have gone up ever since the kwai lous took over mcdees from iskii’s dad. and the food quality has dropped tremendously. portions are shrinking, chickens are getting drier and more tasteless as we speak. but of course, iskii’s only solution to this is to… COMPLAIN online because you’ll get RM5 vouchers everytime you do that. but really, how many can you complain before they start banning your ip? you know what’s my solution, mr. biibiinikins? GET YOUR DAD TO BUY BACK WHAT WAS HIS IN THE FIRST PLACE! or… unless you could still get unlimited supply of RM5 vouchers, then my mouth’s zipped. tightly. lol. but really, i think the whole twenty over kilos that i’ve put on ever since we’ve been together is probably thanks to all the mcdees we have had. maybe, MAYBE, it’s a sign that we should boycott mcdees. okay, maybe not completely, we’ll have strawberry sundaes ONLY once a week. and maybe a chicken foldover once every two weeks? and an apple pie on sundays, only? lol, who the hell are we kidding. i CANNOT live without mcdees any longer. hello, a very much heavier becky in the future. goodbye to ever thinking about losing weight EVER. lol.
i’m rambling, i know. but i’m seriously confused right now. who can we trust? who can we not? i wouldn’t know but i’ll let time show me. till then, i’m off for more … mcdees sundaes … uhm, ais kosong.

(/edited) @ 11.17am, 5.4.07
i am so in love with paul tan!!! the blog, i mean. i’ve been studying a lot about cars, memorising car models and specs and what nots and it feels like im going back to school all over again (only this time, i’m studying on cars!). NOT BECAUSE i’m trying to impress anyone but simply because of what i call, an interest. and paul’s site has done nothing but expand my knowledge in cars. of course, there are heaps of forums that i’ve been reading on a daily basis as well and there’s my personal car guru, iskii. mmm… men and cars, my two main interests. yummy!
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(/edited) @ 11.59pm, 3.4.07
anyone interested in becoming a vj/talk-show-host/somewhere-along-those-lines for 8tv interactive? or would love to be a photographer for a production house (not 8tv)? beep for more details, thanks! i just love passing the message around on behalf of friends.
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(/edited) @ 10.48pm, 2.4.07
oookaay, stop pestering me already. i had a thirty minutes time limit to use the pc and i’ve already exceeded it. lol. here’s my new hair. NOTHING TO SHOUT ABOUT YET until i decide to do something funkier about it. it looks boring still, no? this has got to be my first haircut since my last one with sp last june (or was it july?).

okay, just got a text msg from iskii. he and the rest of the dude from paintball will be on astro ria (channel 4) 11pm news. the sport segment will start around 11.15pm. so go turn on the tv and watch them! i’ll try to post more pictures the next time i get to use my pc longer. tatayoung peeps and…
happy belated 18th monthliiversarii, bii!
it sure feels like forever since we first got together. i ** youuuu… biibiiniikiins!
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i went back to malacca and lost … something semi-precious to me. my tresses! i’ve always wanted to snip them off because the long hair is not growing healthily and also, it’s pretty damaged from the curls i used to have and all the coloring. i’m thinking of dying my hair PITCH BLACK and then get some highlights (probably a very bright red or purple. or maybe i should skip the purple cause somehow, 80% of the things i wear lately are purple) provided i’ve got the time to do so. my hair looks completely different from how the stylist did for me after i washed it but i dont care. I LOVE IT. *swings head* it’s short and it gives me (/quote iskii’s stylist) “a fresh look” (/unquote). i think short hair’s like the in thing now because i just found out in my gmail (through multiply notification) that lynn too got her hair snipped! hooray! i’ll post photos if i ever get a chance to touch my computer at home. toodles. back to work!