(/edited) @ 3:14pm, 24.06.06.
since we are on the money topic, i would really like to express myself about something. to a whole lot of you, especially these two people, you have been such an important bit in my life and i thought if the whole world turns its’ back on me, i had YOU BOTH to count on. you were both such an inspiration and motivation for me to carry on with life when i am down and crushed. but who wouldve thought, you are now the cause for it. the thought of you packing with others is just so disappointing, if not outrageous. it has crushed me so deeply that just because i am constantly financially incapable, you had to do things to me. i am sorry i am not from a wealthy family and hence not being able to enjoy lifes’ pleasures as much as you guys do. i am sorry for being a student who is not earning her own dough. i just cant believe the fact that two people whom i truly love would be the masterminds behind all these.
if you have ever had a problem with me, i expected YOU BOTH to come to me and ask me personally instead of speculating behind my back. now that the story has been spreading, didnt YOU THINK that it will someday reach my ears? i clearly remember there were others, ESPECIALLY THE OTHER MASTERMIND, who were constantly broke. i dont remember anyone making fun of them nor did what you guys did. i hope you’re happy with your decision. and when i say im broke, i meant im broke. stop asking why was i here and there because unfortunately, i had them covered for and im not proud of it. if you were a true friend, you wouldve asked what was really my situation instead of spreading more malicious rumours and well, do the things you guys did. thank you for letting me know that you guys were never truly there for me, thank you for opening my eyes. and stop asking me why ive stopped hanging out with you guys, it’s not because of me having a boyfriend in my life and i’m sure you know why now, but it’s because unfortunately, i am too poor to hang out with you guys. if to share a friendship has a price tag to it and it means having the need to have the cash to spend and splurge, then i am sorry, i am not eligible to be your friend. and lastly to readers, i’m sorry that this would have to be one of the most emo-est entry ever but they were once, very very important people in my life. the end.
dang, i missed posting an entry on 06.06.06 and 20.06.06. oh well. *shrugs* you know, it amazes me at how thick a person’s skin can get. ive been hearing so many tales of girls asking for gifts, and mind you, i’m talking about EXPENSIVE GIFTS ranging from jewelleries, air tickets, cars and condominiums. and what’s even more fascinating is, some of them are NOT even the girlfriends to these rich sugardaddies.
i personally know a few and have spoken to a few (p/s: the guys are usually much older too, btw). the usual respond i get from the girls would be, “life is short. i’m young. so chill la. if there are people who are willing to spend on me, why not? what do i have got to lose”. actually, that’s like a combo of responses. i dunno. for one, you lose all the respect from people. i DONT respect gold diggers. i know you can be like the prettiest chick on earth but if you’re only after money in a relationship (or sexationship, since some arent even the girlfriends but are providing sex in return), i just think it’s not worth it. you’ll get people judging you, and bitching about you but i guess you must’ve already thought about that, huh. that it’s all worth it because all you want is money, money, money, the blingblings and other expensive gifts.
and some of the guys are so damn ignorant. they actually believe that they stand a chance in being the girl’s partner but what they dont realise is these chicks are only after their money. i hope nobody gets all perasan-ed over this entry cos i am not talking about anyone in particular. it’s just something i thought i should say, prolly as a word of advice to those of you who dont realise you are being used. of course, there are cases where the opposite happens when the guys are after the girl’s money. so it applies to both genders, i guess.
i once had a prick as an ex who would promise me jewelleries, cars and stuffs. whenever i look at something, he’ll ask, “you want? i buy for you la“. but i was never interested in any of them firstly because, it has always been a personal principle (a better word suggestion, anyone?) to earn my own money and buy what i want. i’m not saying i’m like the holiest person on earth la. yes, iskii buys me meals and at times, small koochierat stuffs but i’ll always try my best to buy him meals/small koochirat stuffs back. and i do suggest to going for holidays and etc, but i wont expect him to pay all by himself. i wont go unless i have the cash for it.
anyways, there are a million things that i soooo wannna get my hands on but because i’m financially incapable, i just keep waiting until i can finally afford it (which i wont because i tend to set my eyes on things that are a bit TOO $$$ for me to afford). and secondly, he’s a prick and a fcking big liar la. he can promise me the moon and the stars for all i care because he speaks nothing but empty promises. i dont mean the promising-to-buy-me-gifts-bit-but-no-gifts-in-the-end but he lies about his past relationships, his current relationships (when we were together and now as well), his feelings and everything else. facking psychotic maniac, not forgetting a bloody schizophrenic too. okay, i shall not get all upset. teehee.
but one thing though, IF a person willingly gives a girl/guy these gifts, then i guess it’s a whole different category because it is not like as though they’ve requested for it. my definition of gold diggers are PEOPLE who actually ask for these gifts. so there, dont shoot me if you think i’m picking on you or something. there are a lot more to say but my mind’s slowly shutting off so time to nap. ZzZzZzz
(/edited) @ 3:51am, 23.06.06
p/s: ok ok, i got comments over msn/commentbox stating that they are not gold diggers just because they ask for gifts once in a while. should i state that, i’m referring to people who do it often? and the gifts must be super expensive as well. as i was typing the earlier entry, i just found out that one of the girls who crossed my mind as i typed was not only asking gifts from a guy but A FEW OTHERS. omfg. *faints* good luck la wei.