(/edited) @ 3:58pm.
after a few discussions ive had with friends, i truly believe that we all live with masks on our faces. we hide what could be the truth behind them because we fear of hurting the ones we love or risking an ugly situation. i believe, we’re all actors and actresses ourselves because we all do what pleases other, but seldom, do what pleases us. amen.
hah. how ironic can it be. hours before, joy and i were discussing about our painful UTI experiences. hours later, it striked again. i doubt it’s a mental thingy because i have been getting the pains on and off. i was still able to tolerate the pain and then as i stayed up longer to finish my assignment, the pain became intolerable. the urge to pee every five minutes, the blood that flows together with the urine, the burning sensation when i pee. it was so uncomfortable, really. the feeling was like as though my vagina’s being forced open, pegged on both ends and made to stay that way. this is probably the worst ive had.
yes, sjmc i shall go. i am gonna demand for the referral letter from my panel clinic, whether they like it or not. i am so not gonna suffer for months anymore. WHOTHEFACKHASUTIEVERYMONTH?! but i doubt im going today. im feeling too weak to drive and cause a havoc should the docs disagree. i seriously feel so alone in all this. where is my bloody pillar to lean on?
ok, typing all this is wasting my energy. and oh, before i bid adieu, maxine was in university hospital with suspected appendicitis. what’s happening to us, the t-m.net girls, i wonder. hope no one hates this site enough to curse us all. toodles.
p/s: i went to the docs at 5:15am. she was sleeping and super groggy when i visited her (i had no choice cos it was the only clinic opened at that hour and it’s 23 hours. wtf). she was mumbling and she just kept rolling her eyes. like whatthehell. and i was charged rm55 to see all that. but hey, her painkillers worked so i shall not bitch about her. and oh, her advice to me? no nylon undies, more loose cotton ones instead. in other words, granny undies la. wahlau. maybe i should go pinjam from my granny. and to wash with water after peeing then wipe with tissue. and drink lotsa water. same ol’ advice, but it’s not working, doc.
(/edited) @ 3:58pm.