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the end is only the beginning

the end is only the beginning

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in our lives, we have plenty of people that comes and goes. sabby, for instance, was back into our lives just two weeks ago and now she’s flying off again on new years’. some of them leaves impact and makes a difference and some dont. it is the year end again and everyone’s so excited that the new year’s just around the corner. it fancies me really on why people are celebrating the fact that time’s passing us by so quickly and that we are not growing any younger. as the years passes by, we meet more challenges, people from all walks of life and we have even more responsibilites to handle. of course, a new year signifies a new hope for some but it also means that we could be giving ourselves false hopes. hopes and dreams that we can never achieve and could only long for. i know ive set goals for myself for the past few years and i am yet to achieve them (see, that’s why you shouldnt make new year resolutions you cant keep) and each year, i get more and more disappointed with myself. i am not being a pessimist here but do think over it before you go to bed.
yes, i have met some of the best people in my life who have changed my perception on things and life itself but i have also lost a great amount of them as well. there are many things in life i wish i had done differently so that things wouldn’t be this bitter but i guess it is through these mistakes that will teach us how to be stronger and wiser in future undertakings. i am not saying i regret the things ive done over the years because i am happy being who i am (although there are a couple of dirty habits that i would so love to get rid of). im sure we all wonder about the same things at time, what if we had chosen the other path? the road not taken. what couldve changed and how different it couldve been. it’s not wrong now, is it?
year 2005 has been no different from the many other years before it. i have had my fair share of ups and downs but like ive said, it has taught me some of the most important lessons in life and brought me friendships i would cherish for a very long time to come. i would personally like to thank sandy, yeeng, terry (who is damn buruk siku for god’s sakes!), maxine, stoneyboy and none other than my dear iskii for making year 2005 great and for always being there for me. ive written some personal thank you entries to some of the mentioned individuals but i’ll post it some other time because this entry is already as thick as the bible if you were to print it out.
alrite, im gonna summarise my year by the months. certain contents could be offensive to some esp those that im talking about but it really did happen. enjoy scrolling down.
jan 2005 – i became the goldilocks of bukit jalil with blonde curls on my head. it was a huge transformation but it was fun being ah lian for a while. it was a month full of meet up sessions and parties. it was a great start indeed. well, apart from the morons i had to deal with then though esp the bitch whom i had to deal when i got into an accident.
feb 2005 – it’s the month of love and all that shinnits again and i organised my annual vday groupdate and this time it was held at a proper hotel, pyramid tower. omfg. it was fabulous! i had so much fun. too bad the gang is kicking me out of the event next year just cause i have iskii. oye, how can you kick me out since I AM THE GOD DAMN ORGANISER?
march 2005 – this is the month i got to know iskii better just because he saw i joined dcm. we have always talked a lot back in the irc and icq days but yea, somehow, it’s just weird that we spoke more than ever through msn just because of a forum that im not even active in.
april 2005 – i was finally over him, the monstrous lying imbecile jerk, and i know ive never told anyone how, but it was through iskii and the support of my other friends, mainly, the notorious mamak gang. it made me realise that it was not worth to go through so much for someone whom i dont even believe i have “anything” to begin with (i know i didnt feel that way then but even up till today. it was more of an ego problem i was going through but yea, ive got that settled. he has to lie about things so i doubt i shall ever trust him again even as friends). ive even blogged and changed my msn emoticons after seven agonising months. it was also the month i bought my long-waited lomocam and my mobile after my long-serving 8250 died on me.
may 2005 – this is one perasan month for me because suddenly, everyone’s saying i look like joss stones. i still dont think i look anything like her but up till today, there are about 32 diff peeps who think so. go get your eyes check la, haiyor. desiree, one of my bestest college mates, left for uk to be with gabriel. and i attended the kl fashion week together with my beloved yeeng. that was quite an experience since some guy tried to pick us up but failed miserably. i was also suffering from urinary tract infections (UTI) then and had to go for further check up in SJMC.
june 2005 – i started falling for the drifting scene thanks to my bii (he wasnt my bii then la). it was also the month i lost my ‘virginity’ as i got totally wasted for the first time. i had a price to pay for it because till today, ian tries to stop me from getting near any liquor just in case history repeats itself. TSK, aw, come on, give me a break! i drink occasionally (and quite recent lately) and you dont see me getting all fucked up, right? i had a reason why i drank so much that nite so ian, let’s go drinking again soon? yeeng celebrated her 21st on the 29th btw and i went to singapore.
july 2005 – this was one befuddling month i tell you. i was left in the dark and i did not know what was going on. iskii and i just stopped contacting each other without any reason. he avoided me and i just left it at that. like i say, one leaves, another comes. i got stoney on the 29th of july. my bro’s so called “be-early” birthday present for me. it was of course, the best ever. i loooooove stoney so much. he’s the baby of my family and my mom’s calls him her younger son. he gets all the attention and affection, really. it was also the month i first went liquor shopping near the ghetto and i started to like baking cakes.
aug 2005I FINALLY TURNED 21. i had fun at my party (duh, cos i was the host). got the cartilage piercing i wanted for years but never had the guts to do so. it was a spur-of-the-moment thingy and hooray, got it done (the hole’s close now though thanks to the hairdresser). i went to peedee for the rave (my first rave since 24 aug 2002) and it was disappointing. no offence, joe. maybe because my mind was elsewhere and i wasnt concentrating much on the rave.
sept 2005 – iskii texted me the reason why things were the way it was. and i was even more confused. it just felt weird but we started being close again. of course, i was very cautious because i dont want to upset myself again. i also met with an accident and dennis got himself another butt crack (since the dent’s in the middle of his back). the idiot who knocked me was willing to pay then but now that ive done up my car, he refuses to take responsibility. mcb, i hope you get run over by a truck, really.
oct 2005 – beckiskii was formed and we’re now together as one. ive always been in denial about my feelings for iskii but i guess that nite, 1st oct 2005, we just opened ourselves up and ta-ra-pa-pa-pa, we’re together. i never knew we have fallen so deeply in love with each other. i’m glad whatever happened before, happened, because it somehow strengthens our relationship. david skywalker passed away. it was a sad incident, really.
nov 2005 – it was a month full of celebrations where gerald, max, terence, garick and weng onn celebrated their birthdays. i was also there at iskii’s open house and yea, i had quite a lot of stuffs to do that month. won a design competition that month, btw.
dec 2005 – another month full of celebrations. more makan sessions and all. i was in pee dee (port dickson la, just in case you didnt know) with iskii for his drift event and i had so much fun then. ive also met some of the weirdest people during this month. i guess, all in all, it was a good year because it ended well. what did i say about new years again? 2006, bring it on, baby! if i have ever offended you in any way, im sorry. let’s all start anew? happy new year 2006, y’all!

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*year 2005*
I would really like to do a “summary” just like last year but unfortunately i can’t because there’s just too many things going on in my head now. So this is really just gonna be a summary.
I guess the year 2005 started off just like any other year. CNY gatherings, angpows, gambling and mahjong sessions. This year’s Valentine’s Day was really fun too. It’s definitely my first time celebrating Valentine’s Day with so many people but it’s all good :D. There’s also MANY MANY birthday parties to attend as most of my friends turned 21 this year. WOW…there goes all my money!! 🙁 but it’s all worth it after all the things they did for me 😀 My 21st birthday was abit special this year. I actually had a party. I said special because it was my FIRST EVER birthday party. I’ve never had a birthday party in my whole entire life before. haha well i guess there’s always a first time >.<. After my birthday came becky's birthday :D. Her party has always been fun and full of people and this year was no exception. We really enjoyed ourselves at her birthday party held in duta vista. Lots of food with weird names + lots of crazy people + lots of liquor = superb party :D. Max's birthday was just as fun. hehe we went to asia cafe for dinner and pool and continued with yum char session at DJ. Sometimes it's not the place that matters but it's the company that counts *winks* Besides birthday parties, there were also trips to PD and Cameron Highlands with my high school friends. My experience in Camerons is definitely an unforgettable one especially the steamboat dinner :D. There's nothing much for me to say about my love and study life. It's as boring as ever. A year has passed since the tsunami happened. Let us not forget about those that didnt make it through. Eventhough my family members and relatives are going through a not-so-good time, I really hope things will get better. This is the time for us to be grateful for what we have and to appreciate what we have. I guess that's all for now. Although I didn't get to wish all of you a merry christmas I still wanna wish you all a Merry Belated Christmas and also a HAPPY NEW YEAR. I hope the year 2006 will bring you all lots of luck and happiness.
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orgasmic sexmas!

orgasmic sexmas!

wahahahahahaha… this xmas is hilarious! i just got home from colin elder bro’s place in sec 17. it’s raining mad out there and everywhere’s starting to flood. i could barely see anything thanks to my super-tak-macho wipers. anyway, yea, where was i? yes, my hilarious xmas.
okay, when i first walked into colin’s house with sandy, we were greeted by many of colin’s friends. and while we were munching on the many DELICIOUS cakes and cookies, his friend william introduced himself to us. just as i told him my name was becky, he went, “ohh…oh……. aahhh…oh oh oh“. i was expecting him to say he has been to my site and etc but wait, let me put it in a conversation so it’s easier for you to read.
(i’m trying my best to recall everything cos it was so fast and hilarious)
william: ohh..oh… ahhh… oh oh oh…. uuummmm…
becks: *waits for him to finish*
william: the.. thee…. theeee…
becks: *still waiting*
william: orgassssmmmmmic one!
becks: HUH?! (imagine the weird expression i had on my face cos i was expecting him to say he’s been to my blog or something and no, im not being super perasan la k)
william: multiply! multiply! you’re the one with the… the… thing! the orgasmic one!
becks: WHATTTTTTTTtttttthahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
*sandy and i burst into laughter cos it was so hilarious*
william: hehe, i never knew what it felt like until i felt it yesterday *points to kenneth*
becks: woa, you’ve got the stuffs too?!
kenneth: hehe yea. bought it from gizmo but mine’s diff. it’s blahblahblahblacksheep.
okay, i’m too lazy to remember the rest. that dude was actually referring to the videos in my multiply site. im at colin’s place annually and i only meet him once a year which is during his open house. heh, okay la, so i skipped last years cos i was outstation but hey, colin has one of the best open houses ever. *yums* *rubs tummy* after the buffet at colin’s mamak stall (that’s what kenneth nicknamed colin’s house), we were exploring with colin’s new digital slr and we ended up camwhoring for an hour with over 2GB of photos of just us. we dragged whoever that came into the room and our biggest victims were colin himself and jeffery (sp?). heh, great. now im so stuffed but i gotta shower and rush to klang with khai and justin for a birthday party. tata. *muacks* and MERRY XMAS EVERYBODY. thank you for all the kind calls and smses. *hearts*
p/s: if you WANNA PLEASE ME THIS SEXMAS, pls kindly proceed here. thank you maxine dearest for the BEAUTIFUL SEQUIN BAG which is so damn sexxxyyy and sabbymcgabby for getting me my midori from melb for only rm80.

merry seXMAS peeps!

merry seXMAS peeps!

(/edited) @ 11:48am
MY SISTER SCORED STRAIGHT A’S FOR HER PMR. WITHOUT TUITION! OMFG. I AM SO DAMN PROUD OF HER!!! *muacks*
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ive been tagged. airghhh *pulls hair and stomps feet* please stop tagging me, peeps. *glares* but since everyone’s in such a happyhappyjoyjoy mood because xmas is just around the corner, i’ll do it. pbbbfffftt. i dunno why but i cant feel the xmas spirit. IT JUST DOESNT FEEL LIKE XMAS. anyway, im planless on xmas eve cos well, nothing has been confirmed. i might, however, be doing some visitings on xmas. MAX, ARENT YOU A CATHOLIC? *hints* no invitation from her yet. and RONNIETHEPEREMPUAN (who is now also known as) THEHOTFILIPINOACTOR, i believe you’re one as well, arent you? tsk tsk tsk. okay, first, let me get over and done with the tagging.
Instructions:
State who tagged you;
List who you want your Santa Claus to be (the bearer of the gift);
State the gift you wish to get;
Then invite a few friends to join the tag, and inform them by dropping a comment/tag in their blog.
1. i got tagged by sabbymcgabby
2. my santa claus will be

back to where i belong

back to where i belong

i am sooooo daamn exhausteeeeddddd. *stretches arms* i was suppose to be asleep like four hours ago before terrymcberry called me and said sandy was on the way to “kidnap” (that’s cos it was an unplanned yum cha session and i didnt know anything bout it) us. i was just about to tell everyone on msn that im off to bed and to text my bii that i dont think i can see him tonite too but then when i heard it was sandy, i oblige. well, mainly because I FUCKING MISS HER. ive not seen her since nov 19th so why dont you do the math? it was worth it because i was just talking non-stop to them about everything right from my childhood stories to psychotic exes and friends. heh, i think i did most of the talking tonight (as always!) and they were just trying to tahan my babblings. eh, that’s cos i miss you both so much okay? my malacca trip was SO TYPICAL so i think i rather not speak about it or it’ll be bitchings all the way.
just in case you didnt know, i just got back from malacca like a couple of hours before our typical ah pek yum cha session because we did it at a chinese coffee shop. *glares at sandy* it was my first time seeing sandy throw her tantrum too. *trembles in fear* but all is good. *muacks* and yes, if you’re wondering if sandy and terence have kissed and made up, yes, they did. anyways, i got home from my three days “trip”, and saw how everyone flooded my mailbox. 1340 new mails (of course, 90% of them’s porn and other misc spammings from friends). one of them caught my attention though. someone emailed me about my bloggings and she/he wants to use it as part of a study she’s doing for the bestowal of her degree. i think it’s authentic cos i mailed back and ask for more details and the survey form attached had her short introduction and stuff. anyway, what do i have to lose, eh?
got my hair trimmed today and the hairdresser accidentally COMBED my cartilage piercing out of my ear and now my fucking ear hurts so badly and i think the skin behind it is slightly torn. my mom’s banning me from putting back the stud cos she fear i’ll get “cauliflower” ears. WTF LA. i loved that piercing so much okay. *stomps feet like a child* and while i had to go through that pain, faces called me twice regarding my application for internship with them. well, i could only do slightly shorter than two months but they need someone to do for two months or more. guess im back to bumming. alrite, that’s too much jabbering. all in all, THANK GOD I AM BACK IN KL. *kisses ground* nites.

reasons to marry a chinese girl

reasons to marry a chinese girl

(/edited) @ 5:13am, 17.12.05
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i want THIS TOYBOY for xmas. yum yum sexmas. *slurps* okay, i know it’s freaky la but it’s cute wei. up for grabs for only USD6900. get me one! *drools* heh, kidding but i dont mind if you really DO WANNA GET ME ONE. 😛 off to m’cca later today. kl’s starting to get on my nerves. ta!
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i got this from my beautiful sandy.
Reasons To Marry a Chinese Girl
1. Because they will love and support you with all their heart
2. Because their skin is silky smooth
3. Because they are passionate
4. Because they have such charm
5. Because they always look younger than you thought
6. Because they are enchanted by the West
7. Because their language is like poetry
8. Because they make a great home
9. Because your children will be so beautiful
10. Because their families will love you
11. Because they are so interested in you
12. Because they want YOU!
ho ho ho. it’s super crappy rite but arent you proud to be chinese? ive always been and will always do. i think i’d like to come up with my own list someday. maxine, dont la terasa. you can always come up with your own “reasons to marry an eurasian”. terrymcberry already came up with a reason. YOU SHOULD MARRY AN EURASIAN because… that eurasian is maxine. that’s so sweet. if only there’s someone who is THAT sweet to me. *hugs terence* i am so addicted to crossword puzzles and sudokus from malaysiantoday and now im searching and doing them online. go try them. addictive shit!
okays. am gonna catch a midnite movie. watching chronicles of narnia later. tata. *beams*
p/s: sandy and terry, sila berbaik semula asap okay. quick quick kiss kiss and make up. *mwahs*
(/edited) @ 9.19pm
I JUST FOUND OUT FROM SANDY THAT HER MOM’S CRAZY OVER SUDOKUS TOO. and that thestarnewspaper is promoting it too. i didnt know that. woo hoo, now everyone’s into sudokus. you guys should lepak more with me and iskii at coffee joints, staring at the crossword puzzles and sudokus for hours and solve them together-gether, okay? 😛 w00ts.
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(/edited) @ 9.29pm
ive tried making this a short entry but i cant help adding stuffs. GUYS AND GIRLS, BE WARNED. terrymcberry who now went through a major makeover is officially the tai lou (big brother) of mamak gang. please be informed that if you were to bump into him on the streets, bow down to show your respect or else… dont say i didnt warn you. below is a picture of him to help you recognise him. god bless.

*ROAR* *ROAR*

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big bum bummer becks

big bum bummer becks

arlow there mate. i just got home. *stretches* i did a little exploring around the different sections of peejay today. sect 14 -> sect 16 -> sect 17. being the sakai that i am, i dont go around that area much so well, it was somewhere pretty new for me. it was quite a day today actually. i baked my apa-pun-jadi choc banana cake from my apa-pun-jadi collections. well, basically, my apa-pun-jadi recipes are recipes i heavily modify or create myself. heh. after that, headed to suffian’s (iskii’s cousin) place for his barbie party and then off to meet, ta-ra-ra-ra-rah, joy exwallbangwallpartner and steve. their friend amy (?) was there too. ive not met this exwallbangwallpartner of mine for two and a half years so yea, ’twas good. we drank tequilas as we watched shaun of the dead, the spoof of dawn of the dead. yes, babes, we should ask each other out more often and definitely before steve flies back to uh, sydney was it?
anyway, this weekend’s gonna be hectic. tomorrow there’ll be a welcoming gathering for sammie (frigging hot babes okay) and i know ive promised to be there but i doubt i can make it. airgh, headachiesheadaches. tomorrow is also my tenth weekiiversarii (with iskii, of course) AND ivan’s celebrating his 23rd birthday at poppy’s. not forgetting, gotta get up 8 am-ish to send my car to workshop. *bangs head on wall*









hur, *checks msn list* where’s everyone? i know that damn maxine’s busy humping every single naked men who strolls down the sandy beaches of phuket and yeeng’s busy making friends with her books. as for the beautiful sandy, she’s busy practising her bollywood moves as she rolls around in her room. okay, gotta stop rambling. am gonna finish up my maggi noodles but the thing is, im kinda stuffed already. hur… no wonder ive been gaining so much weight eh? /..\ *sniffles*
p/s: still looking for job. i know ive been quite picky. thanks everyone for asking around. *hargs* i should send out my resumes soon. i really really should. anyways, if you know of a part time/freelance vacancy for anything to do with writing, photography and erm, food, do beep me. and yes, joy, i will be posting my little collage piccies of us soon.

biiching by the beach

biiching by the beach

(/edited) @ 4:22am, 6.12.05
finally, im done uploading the peedee album. clickity-click here. am gonna continue snapping my heart-shaped bruise on my left arm. it’s oddly cute. lol. also, guys, today’s the last day for you to use your rm1 shillings. give them to me if you dont want them, kay? okay, nites.
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i seriously had one of the worst mornings ever, i tell you. i SO WANNA THROW A BITCHFIT but i better not because i wanna make this a happy entry so i guess i gotta bitch elsewhere. *straightens skirts and clears throat* okay, HAI PEOPLE! miss me yet? i was at peedee for the weekend. the best weekend ever, i would say. biggest thanks to my bii for the great weekend (i dont sound pretty enthusiastic eh? that’s cos im still very annoyed with my horrible morning so dont mind me).
*takes deep breath* i seriously need to shake away my annoyance. *takes another deep breath* okay, slightly… better. I HAD MY EYEBROWS THREADED. lol. it hurts a little but what the hell, i didnt mind. biggest thanks goes to Mugg-ly for giving me the infos in my previous entry. i didnt get it done at first impression though, i waited for two hours and it was still closed. so i went to a nearby place. and i had my long-lusted banana leaf rice which was a disappointment but i had a great time sipping my cuppa at sfc, while watching my car for two hours. heh, okay la, i know i still dont sound enthusiastic but you know what puts a smile on my face? knowing that i’ll always have my bii to put back the smile on my face. thinking of him is my happy pill. and speaking of him, PEEDEE rocks. the beaches looked slightly cleaner.



there’s so much to say but as always, words will never be enough to express how things went and how i felt and feel. it was a happy one, definitely. i hope my bii had as much fun as i did. although i didnt get to put on my new bikinis (which was probably a blessing to the rest of the peeps at the beach for they could be suffering from severe sore-eyes), and eat great peedee seafood but at least i had about 48 hours of my bii and that’s more than i could ever ask for. the drift event was okay i guess. i got sun burnt and i was actually happy because im finally adding some “colour” on to myself. iskii says now i suit my “pink taufoo” nickname. heh. the beach was great. it wasnt blue-green nor were the sands sandy white but it was because of iskii, everything looks perfect. i love you, bii (notice the unfancyful spellings like ai luff yew, ai larve eu etc?). i’m uploading the piccies now. there are about 300 piccies. guess i cant upload them all this month since multiply has a 150 limit. im signing off now. keep them comments coming and keep clicking on my googleadsense and sign my guestbook if you havent. danke!

this the season to be sicky, fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la

this the season to be sicky, fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la

ive been really sick. *aaacchooooheadachemigraine* from back aches to migraines and tummy upsets, the list can just go on and on… anyway, nov is definitely a month to avoid. i had like… *count fingers*… erm, 7 birthdays to layan? wahlau, presents also kenot tahan wei. not counting the two so-called surprise parties we threw. but it’s all good. i had fun. im still working on the new layout, which ive been working on for months. ive been busy bumming, you see. not forgetting experimenting in the kitchen (no, not karma sutra stuffs. stuffs you can eat. no, not genitals but actual food, yes, you pervert). some flopped, some made it. im still far from being good. and ive been busy taking care of stoney. he seems to be ill lately. he keeps purging. poor boy. *pats* i’ll try to post some piccies soon but meanwhile, hop on to my tickleme.multiply.com photo albums. i’ll be off to port dickson this weekend to support iskii. hooray, bii. good luck! happy 2ndmonthlyversary (that’s quite a mouthful, isnt it) to us too. and oh, happy 26th wedding anniversary to my parents. tata.
p/s: know where can i get good eyebrow threading? it’s only rm5 i heard.
currently crooning to: kelly clarkson – because of you.