hur. i wasnt supposed to blog but oh well, i thought, the pix couldnt wait though i still owe some of you my cny pix esp those of my cousins. i cant believe dan can actually drool over my 14 year old cous. as for terence, he’s drooling over my 17 year old second cousin. ish. how come no one’s drooling over me, eh? *gets heartbroken* anyway, let’s get back to the pix. yesterday was shu yin dearie’s bday. i only found out last min so i went to klcc an hour earlier and then was joined by terence and followed by dan who came all the way after college (so he was dressed in formal and looking real hot!) to look for shu yin’s pressie. finally, five mins before meeting shu yin, we just grabbed a very cute pink pillow (flower shaped) and yea, that was it. i thought it was really lovely but whether she likes it or not, that’s a diff thing.
we then had dinner at chillies before 6pm because dan was really hungry and guess what? he was the first to complain he’s full. doh! the dinner was really really fun and most of us couldnt finish our meal. i think i have half of my dish left but as dan said, we were too full most probably wasnt much because of the dishes but more because we laughed too much? dan was entertaining us with his bkt mertajam kiasu-ism acts, backed up by us. muehehehe. tommy then join us about an hour later (my apologies, tommy-san). it turned out tommy knew peter since highschool over some chess tournament. then later on, when we were GOSSIPING about fon fon, it seems tommy knows him too, through magic card matches. my gawd. tommy seems to know the whole penang eventhough he has been in california for a few years. muehehehehe. oh btw, fon’s coming down this afternoon for blabbers bloggers. i cant make it though. `o(
alright, that’s all for now. more pix of only my COUSINS (since no one wants mine) and other miscelleneous pix coming up asap. gonna have a small farewell gathering for brandon, one of the oldest #pfs-ians around later in the afternoon. then off to my gf’s house for some mass orgy and then to pick up my singaporean cousins from bus station at midnight. oh man, wish me luck. adios. and oh, happy belated pai ti gong. `o)
currently listening to : christina aguilera – the voice within

before anything else, i so wanna wish dylan-simply-too-cutey-that’s-so-hot-i-almost-burnt-my-brains-just-by-thinking-about-him-all-day-long a very very big happy birthday. *gives him a thousand and one birthday kisses*
mrs.yap becky is back! hehe. from the hell-ish grounds of malacca. thank god! i got so home sick after being there less than two weeks (my few hours back last week does not count) that i just got home earlier than expected. i would be lying if i were to say i had a good time there because i didnt. as a matter of fact, i had one of the worst punishments ever, very bad skin allergy + fungal infection on my face! holy cow. take that! two at once, all thanks to the very almost-could-melt-you hot weather. even that was an understatement. sighs. and i have no face to go meet up with my shu yin dearie and peter (and maybe shu wen too!), tommy sweetie who just got back from california, sharon cutie who will be back in two weeks time (omg, she’s so fcking hot now), and there’s a few others but well, i didnt make arrangements with them so let it be lah. ive not even met my own eve mama! omg. hahaha. but this week is definitely not a week to meet up with old friends. `o( on top of the butt-ugly fungal infection on my face, ive just put on 5kg. how’s that? im so gonna explode soon. `o(
oh yea, my pc crashed last week and good ol` biatch0 helped me with it. he quoted that my pc’s a “going, going, gone” case. *sniffles* anyhow, chillies on me lah yea biatch0? hehe. im still yet to go back to collect some software cds from him. aijor. anyhow, will be back in malacca this weekend again. *grumbles mumbles* my ozzie cousin from london will be back for only two days. oh yea, besides that, my singaporean cousins are coming over this weekend, so im really fully booked. there’s this blabber blogger gathering organized by sui lin and dicky. i cant xs into my ftp right now because most of my softwares are gone so you need more infos, just pop into their sites or any other m’sian bloggers site and you’ll see the details and stuff. my cny pix will be out asap once i get my ftp done. terence abang is already drooling badly over a pix of my cousins. ish. till then, adios. `o) gilmore girl’s on tv! *muacks*
currently listening to : sheryl crow- the first cut is the deepest

~~~ Happy Chinese New Year!!! ~~~
Quick shout outs, Gong Xi Fa Cai to people i know personally who visits this site – – Becky dear, Yeeng, Pat, Shu-Yin, Celeste, Jolyne, Dion and Bernard. Have a great time ok you people? Loads of hugs and muakss ..:)
To everyone else, Happy Chinese New Year to you too!!! May you have a nice and prosperous new year.
Recap of the week since I’ve been back in Penang
Friday – Lunch at Dome, Gurney Plaza with Rachel & Banyen. Bumped into Kuan Nee, Marie, Wooi Min & a few other people( i cant rem). At night, went to Raffe with Banyen,Kuan Nee, Wooi Min & Timothy. We had a great long talk and we did managed to catch up with some latest gossips. 🙂 Met Shu-Yin & Peter, Dawn and a few other friends. Even met Nicol David there. No biggie though.
Saturday– My best bud, Christine‘s sister, Anne‘s wedding. Mass at my church in the morning then dinner was at Shangrila Hotel. Food was really gooood!! I’m such a glut. Sigh.
Sunday – Went for evening mass, met Terence & Christine & etc. At night, met up with Banyen, Christine & Gerard at Sunrise Mcdonalds.Before that , we popped by Gurney Plaza. Bumped into Tchen Shun, Navin & my cousin,Leon respectively. After McD, we headed to Raffe. It was kinda weird that day , cause the Raffe guy who knows us so well ( he even knows what we always drink and eat and all), he gave me and Banyen a speech about studying hard and getting good jobs and there is no rush to find the special someone and blah blah blah; he even said that we better study hard or else we would end up like him. Poor guy. haha…
Monday – Did my contact lens!! FINALLY!! Man, it hurt like hell when I first put it on and took it off . It took me approximately more than an hour to actually put it and take it off. How do you people actually do it so freaking easily?? Damn.. my eyes hurt like hell for the entire day. I really hope I get used to wearing the bloody things. Sighssss…..
Tuesday – Had my orthodontic appointment. Tightening as usual. The aftermath just sucks. Beside that, i did nothing! Stayed at home. 🙁
Today(Wednesday) – Met up with Shalyn for breakfast at Subaidah. Had a good chat with her. The rest of the day was spent at home. How boring. Man.. i need a life. My family and I had Yee Sang( Ee Sang?) for dinner! haha..it was good! 🙂
Take care everyone. Happy Holidays!! 🙂

hi! *ponders* okie, so im not supposed to be here but i managed to get my tix back to kl BUT im back to my “military camp” (granny’s place) tomorrow. another two hours plus journey (minus the massive jam) back to malacca. i hate travelling. makes my ass flatter and flatter by the day. my four days at my granny’s place was close enough to hell. first day itself i got up at 7:30am to buy breakfast and then do some housework and by 11 am, i raised my white flag and went to bed. got up after my granny made lotsa noise and i was helping out with “acar” and “kuih rose” till 9pm. that’s right! you see, my granny has 11 kids, 20++ grandchildren and 10++ great grand children. of course, not all will be back from cny but then we still have to prepare food and cookies in a huge amount and not forgetting, the guests that will be coming. my “military” training starts from usually 8:30am till 12:30am. phew. im so exhausted. im back in kl but there’s more “military” training back in my own home. i so need a massage and lotsa loving from mr. yap (dont ask me who). maybe berd could shed some light on that since he was the one who started nicknaming me mrs. yap. `o(
my whole body’s ACHING! 🙁 and my food poisoning’s back. airgh! *pulls her hair up high* can you believe the amount of cooking and baking we did?! sighs. from the moment we open our eyes till the moment we close em, we’re busy slaving ourselves. i dont really mind though because i sorta went back voluntarily. but what im not happy is the way my relatives bang me. im sorry im no miss universe material they expect me to be, im sorry im no good grandchild, im sorry im not talented in cooking, im sorry im not small in size, im sorry im not perfect and im sorry i am proud of myself. everyone since i was a kid thought and hoped i’ll be some chun chiqa who’ll enter bimbo pageants like the rest of my aunts and even my mom or at least an air stewardess like some of my aunts or cousins. wtf?! so what if im big fat and ugly and am nothing like the rest of my so called “super chioh bu” relatives?! they keep bombing me and well, im glad im very tolerant and am not like last time. it was a good patience practice. i had to go through it everyday with them telling me how awful i look, how useless i am, and well… you get the rest of it. i dont fcking care anymore though it still stings me a little. `o( again, this is why i dislike cny besides the amount of workloads!
oh well, me being nice, im willing to go back for more bangings tomorrow. `o( hehe. u know, some asshole prank called my granny’s house from 11 pm (before that, the phone was accidentally switched off) till 12:30am (but that’s only because we switched the phone off back). it automatically rang non stop and each time we pick up, the fella just kept quiet. after about an hour, that asshole played some quran verses for us to here and then after the next few calls, he started playing some very weird music for us to here. the next morning, when we turned on the phone back, it was ringing again but just for a short while. this morning was the same as well. telekom said they cant help us check out who the caller is and advice us to change the num. stupid shit. the funny thing was, it also happened in my house but no weird chantings or music. it also happened to my hp. the thing is, nobody but my gf knows my house number and none of my friends knows my granny’s num so i highly doubt it’s for me. it was so freaky that i dare not sleep. >.< okies, anyways, gong xi fa chai everyone. xing nian kuai le. hung pao nah lai, please. i just bought another top because my relatives complaint mine's all black and white and cant be worn on chinese new year's first day. i now officially have 9 tops (inclusive of two jackets), 3 bottoms, shit loads of accessories, a scarf and three sandals. and again, i'm proud to announce, im officially broke. hehehe. QUICK GET MARRIED LAH ALL OF YOU, DAMN IT! kidding. muacks. im off to slave myself. Happy Chinese New Year! 🙂

*yaaaaawwwwwnnnnn* I’m soooo sooooo soooooo ( need I say more?) sleepy! But due to my undying love for Becky, I am blogging cause she asked me to. Or else she would not be able to come online for the nxt couple of days or week as she’s going to Malacca for CNY ( yeah right, that’s just an excuse..knowing Becky she’ll just be online in some cyber cafe somewhere cause she just can’t live without the internet..hahaha) 🙂 *hugs* Man, I miss Malacca! It’s a good place..haha I regret moving to Cyberjaya. Sigh oh well!
Anyways, I’m back in Penang, again! And there was this really cute Caucasian guy who was waiting for the bus too and he looked really really lost. At that moment, I was praying so hard that he was going to Penang too and woohoo! he actually did get up the same bus as me. And even better, he sat RIGHT in front of me. Wahaha.. although I could only see his head, but oh well..his head looked good too! Short Spiky hair…*yuuuummm* I immediately SMS-ed Becky and my room mate, Lai Shing. I actually had no idea why I msged them but I just did; cause he was freaking hot! He looks mix chinese too I think.. 😛 Then halfway thru the journey, he actually moved to the double seats next to mine cause the bus was practically EMPTY! There were 6 passengers anyway. And when he moved next to me, he gave this really really cute grin! Wahaha.. damn! I was in cloud 9. But anyway, nothing happened after that unfortunately. Baah..whatever! 🙂
Its good to be back at home as usual, had good mum’s food for dinner.*nyumms*. I’ll be having about 2 weeks + holidays back in Penang so I’m really looking forward to having a good time and to just kick back and relax. I’ve got plans already for tomorrow , woohoo.. going for lunch with Rachel-Anne and Banyen in Gurney Plaza. Can’t wait to meet up with them.
I’ve got a busy weekend ahead of me this week.My best friend, Christine’s sister is getting married this Saturday so my whole Saturday I’ll be busy.
Anyway, as usual I have nothing much to say(damn I suck in blogging!). In case I don’t blog in a couple of days time, i just wanna wish you guys a very HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! to all of you celebrating it! and to non-chinese readers, have a great holiday.
And oh yeah, Becky also would like to wish you guys HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!. She’ll be going back to Malacca tomorrow so she may not be able to blog and wish you guys then. so yeah, she sends her love to all of you !
Take care people, don’t get too drunk during CNY! Lots of love.

(/edited) at 1:38am, 15th jan 04

im sorry. i just had to blog this but im too lazy to write a whole new entry. this is part of what has happened last night. a mad psycho who lives above me kept throwing things down, targetting at this particular spot (a carpark). now the sad thing was, this has been going on for months and the saddest group of security guard has yet to catch the culprit. the psycho was on a one month hiatus and now he’s back throwing lotsa stuffs like iron rods, water bottles, newspapers (the star newspaper, must be pretty educated), biscuit tins… and etc. that was before the hiatus actually. yesterday he filled an empty biscuit tin and threw at a car downstairs almost at 3am and looked at the pix of what has happened. i just heard him throw something down. vista komanwel, my condo, was supposed to be “poshy” but it’s turning out that even “educated” (based on the star newspaper) psychos could live here. what has gotten into this place?! may you all send some ppl down here and may we chase the culprit together. hooray. besides, im in a happy mood now. very happy. nice catching up with you, nik lim and the rest of those who ive just chatted (esp my long lost school mates!). love you heaps, mr loverboy. 8″) adios. and oh oh, 8tv rocks muh buttocks btw! 8″)
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sighs. it’s only 1:31am and no one’s in sight. where are all my loved ones?! `o( was really sick and i mean really really really sick but i dragged myself out of the bed when my aunt called because she wanted to buy a dress. if u hadn’t known, i had sore throat the day before but it recovered fast the next day as it was quite mild. since i was all hippy and all, i baked two types of cookies and drank this “red clover” tea my mom gave me and erm, got food poisoning after that. i think it’s from the tea because god knows how old the tea is. definitely not my cookies as they are safe to eat! anyway, back to my aunt, we headed out to midvalley but got lost and went to mont kiara instead but it’s all good. found our way and had lunch at kim gary. i thought i was feeling much better but when we started to walk around, exploring the megamall, i kept getting sharp pains on my tummy and i had to squeeze my tummy hard and stand the pain but that didnt mean i didnt get to buy anything though. i wasnt supposed to shop but damn it, i ended up spending about almost another hundred on just accessories. sighs. `o( please, never ever bring me out to malls or whatsoever that has lotsa varieties. in pain or not, i’ll still buy stuffs. now, again, im officially broke. sorry abang, i cant keep my promise. `o( i spent the money liaos.
i dont know what’s with me and spending so much like as though im mrs richy rich. i think for the past few weeks, all u’ve ever heard on is about me spending money like nobody’s business. here i am complaining how broke i am and how my empty milo tins could do me a favor or two and im still spending money unnecessarily. probably because im trying to cheer myself up by pampering myself. life’s full of ups and downs after all, eh? oh yea, anyway, was supposed to be back in malacca today until the fourth day of cny (about two weeks plus duration) but my aunt got a call and she got herself the job she applied last week so i’ll be back much later. hehe… thank god. being in malacca for two weeks plus is a pure torture although tommy might be there and so is sexy guy. oh speaking of bernard, he has been such an amazing chatmate lately. i didnt know he had so much to crap and i didnt know he’s a bi! 8″P kidding! but well, let’s just say, i know who he’s after now and im erm, NOT helping him. *looks at yeeng* whoops?! jk! 8″)
cny is really round the corner. no one’s getting married before cny. bad timing. `o( evil evil couples. no mercy on bankcrupt people like me. hehe. that’s the so called lucky bamboo tree i bought recently to put at my coffee table. i thought it looked rather cute. wanted to buy a kamquat tree too but oh well, no more $$$ *kaching*. hmmm… i dont really have much to say actually. went to see the docs earlier on and went to pasar malam after that. poor sick ol’ becks had to go out the whole day but i think that really helped me recover fast as my chronic tummy aches are feeling much better now. since i cant go for my brisk walking today, i guess all the shopping and walking was a good suppliment.
anyways, was talking to max and well, we sorta talked about old times, back in cpt, our primary school. you know, ive known max for ten holy years. we lost touch for about six years or so but oh well, we’re very much in love with one another now. it seems that all those “long lost” friends or kaki lepaks of mine that ive asked her about were ex-bulimics. wth? i wish i was one too then i would be as pretty as them with a body to die for as well. ive seen some of their latest pix and boy, they are so god damn hot. what to do. cpt girls are to-die-fors anyways. ask frostie, he should know better since he lives nearby. alrights, i’ll end here. nites. my piggies are saying nitey nites too. muacks all you beloved. <3 *goes adoring her dreamboy of four years* p/s : try listening to lux (cafe del mar) - northern lights. introed by beng kuan. chill out music rules!

hmm… i have so much to say that i dont know where to start. so many good news. im so happy. im delirious! hehe. but i’ll keep that for the last bit. suspense mah. i just got back from the edu fair at pwtc since my dad says he might be sending me to aussie or new zealand (darn, i dont wanna be milking cows, man!). my dad’s not gonna be sending me to rmit (my dream uni after middlesex!) though because it’s way too pricey. `o( looks like i’ll end up in curtin university or murdoch university. that sucks. sucks sucks sucks! *pouts* anyway, while i was at my uni. coll‘s booth, i saw my highschool headmaster. he still remembers me and that made me proud because when i was back in penang a few weeks ago, my primary school teacher, pn.liew remembered kristina but not me. *boo hoo hoo*. oh btw, i met my primary classmate, theresa ong, at the edu fair. she’s half my size. she didnt grow an inch since i last saw her in primary six. hehe. oh well, back to my ex-headmaster, he’s now working for my uni. coll. how queer is that?!
okies, i know that was boring and was none of your concern. hiaks. let’s go to erm, the next topic i have in line. for the first time in my life, our car have been stopped by the police middle last night. it was really stupid cos we were all dressed in shorts and t-shirts and we just left our house like five mins ago and the policemen thought we were back from a drinking session. we showed our idents and he kept looking at us suspiciously. siao lang!. anyways, went on for yc and abangess & ivan joined us. not too long after that, we met daniel who was supposingly very very sick (nyehehehehe. caught you!). stevens was awfully quiet yesterday though but there was this particular hot mama that terence was busy checking out (hor, terence, hor?!). nyehehehehe.
dad woke me up at 10am this morning and i was so blur. did some cooking and this time, im burnt-free! hehe. i already have four burns on my hands. terence said it looks like as though ive been abused. l33t. anyways, guess what?! 8tv is showing gilmore girls! *dances around as she throws pieces of her clothing away* im so happy. *wiggles booty* but it was supposed to be on tuesday night. i dont know why the hell they show gilmore girls at 12 in the noon on a sunday. who the hell gets up so early (except today, i dont usually get up before 12). now i’ll have to set my alarm just to be able to watch gg although ive watched them all. i even have them in cds. i can never get sick of gg and most of you would’ve known gg influences me alot! `o) i love gilmore girls.
oh well, enough on gg. they’re stealing the spotlight away from me. ahem… *insert drum rolls please*, now let’s talk about what that has been making my day (or week or actually, for the past one month!). a guy that took me four years to make him notice me finally noticed me for the past one month. last time, he wouldnt even stop to talk to me at all but now, he’s not only calling me but he’s pestering me to go out with him and all. after waiting for four years, i still feel the same “BURNING SENSATION” i felt back when i was in highschool. even if i were to just stand beside him, i would’ve melt instantly because he’s too hot. everyone i know who knows him says he’s fcking adorable and hot, including my own sister! you know, i’ve kept his number in my mobile for four years hoping that someday i’ll see that number appear on my mobile, a call from him. and guess what?! all the wait’s worth it. now not only has it appeared but it seems to be appearing way too frequently. but u know what? im not going to go out with him yet. it’s nice trying to jual mahal. anyways, he’s just nice to admire and drool over and nothing more so im not putting in hopes. `o) he knows who he is because well, i cant help but keep telling him how uneasy he makes me feel whenever i talk to him or see his pix because i’ll be busy drooling over him. hahahaha. ohmigosh! i cant believe im still behaving like a teenage girl. oh wait, im still a teen until 3rd august this year. hiaks. `o) oh p/s : he’s a few cm shorter than me now though because when i first adored him, he was taller and after four years, oh well, i grew and overtook his height. no harm done though. hiaks hiaks.
hmmm.. i guess that ends my entry for today. kris’s granny just passed away on tuesday. my condolences. `o( tommy’s coming back this cny’s eve. hooray. more sfc kaki and ang pow for me. been grocery shopping for the past three days. wanna know how much i spent? rm300+! tsk tsk. oh well, till then, im off to prepare burgers and salads for my family. adieu! `o) love y’all loads! <3

hur. i dont know why my gf (yeeng) loves framing me. sniffles. i guess im just too bully-able. haha. oh, ive just realised something. how to differentiate our entries ; max’s, yeeng’s and mine. max’s usually is short and simple, comes in few paragraphs, yeeng’s comes in one whole chunk and mine comes in a super long and wordy manner. hehe. oo, and karin nyummies calls me the linking queen or something because i love linking things. well, not that much anymore actually. haha. `o)
as you’ve noticed, the tagboard’s up. it’s a free one from tagboard.ca, the one i used in my old site before i used a cgi one. im not gonna stick to this though. am gonna try to look for better scripts, php or cgi that doesnt lag my site. any suggestions? im so nice. put up a taggy all for fr0stie and shoot blank’s sake. am also looking for a good guestbook script. if you’ve notice, my site’s pretty “naked” (bare). hehe.
anyway, i wasnt up to suicidal about my results. my gf exaggerated. i was rather disappointed. 2As/4 subs isnt enough if you are looking for scholarship. my dad did casually tell me that he might be sending me to overseas if i really work hard. this is so damn good news but then again, my bro just started his classes in another art college and it’s known that art colleges are pricey, esp mine. if im not mistaken, the degree’s rm30,000 per year and we have to pay the whole lum sum on january next year. abit the too much right? ish. as for my results, there’s good news though. im not so broke anymore. got some cash from my dad for my results. hehe. shopping and dim sum, anyone? speaking of dim sum, i was having a really crappy conversation with bernard earlier this morning (2am-ish). it was so crappy that i couldnt stop laughing in the middle of the night. he nows has a new name, bernard loke se-xy (bernard look sexy). haha. give him a big round of applause please, everyone! *claps claps*
and oh, hehe, have i mentioned? i was teaching yeeng basic htmls the other day so i decided to trick her. hehe. she actually fell for it okie? and how berd wished it was for real, hor? 8″)

hiaks. been doing lotsa food shopping and cooking lately. i dont know what’s with my sudden love for cooking. hehe. `o) maybe it’s because of a pressure from someone? *smiles* am gonna cook devil’s curry tomorrow. any tester out there? hehe. oh yea one more thing, the three of us, max, yeeng and i are now officially available. any prince charming for us out there? hiaks. `o) call us for audition yea? and also, good luck to mmu students for their exams next week. hehe. im off now. take cares! 😛

hie everyone.warh!i so long didnt blog liao…kekeke….got miss me or not? anyway….happy new year everyone…i am sorry i wished u guys abit late. i just realized i have tis bad habit of typing….after every sentence.pls forgive me!!!!kekeke..anyway…before i forget..becky asked me to tell u guys she got 2 As out of 4 subjects and she is very sad now and she hampir bunuh diri yesterday and she needs some money to go clubbing.anyone who has extra money can donate some to her..=) ( becky is so going to kill me). today is my first day in college after about one month of holidays..it’s kinda sad coz i didnt really do anything during the holidays..i just went yum char with my frens and makan and makan and tidur and tidur and then the next thing i know…my holidays habis liao..=( so sad ler…today i hampir tertidur in the class coz my class started at 8am and somemore no leng chai in my class to inspire me and motivate me to stay awake..muahahaha..cant wait for the monash U students to return..the leng chai hunt 2004 will begin in less than one month from now..stay tune for updates..=).i have a feeling that 2004 will be a better year for me coz i am very happy now.. weeeee .. 2003 had been quite a bad year for me..i had more downs than ups…i was sad and depressed most of the time..i really hate to be in tis kind of stuation..i hate myself for being tat way..but luckily 2004 has been great so far..i kinda met back one of my primary school fren through friendster…it’s fun talking to him…kekeke..glad to make the first new fren in year 2004…oh yeah…new year resolutions..kekeke…all this while i nvr made any resolution b4 ..mayb i was lazy or mayb i just didnt want to let myself down for not being able to do it…BUT tis year i actually made two resolutions..keke….very simple and easy to do (duwan to susahkan myself) first..i want to learn as many things as possible ..second i want to make more frens…=) easy isnt it? wanna share ur resolutions wiff me? remember to comment ya!!! hahaha…anyway i am sorry i didnt have much to blog tis time…i think i better stop here…so take care everyone….have a nice day and hope tat 2004 will be a better year for all of us..adios..*muaks*

Funny when you stop and think
Time goes faster than you blink
But nothing’s ever
Like it was
But girl we’ve got a special thing
And all the happiness it brings
Is more than enough
I know it’s hard to believe
You’re still the biggest part of me
All I’m living for
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
And need you by my side
I’m still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You’re still the one
You’re still the one
It’s hard to breathe when we’re apart
You’re like sunshine in my heart
I keep you here inside
You’ve been everything to me
You’ve been and always will be
The apple of my eye
I know it’s hard to believe
You’re still the biggest part of me
All I’m living for
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
And need you by my side
I’m still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You’re still the one
You’re still the one
If you love me
Look into my eyes
And say you do
I’ve been waiting
All my life
For someone
Just like you
And baby after all we’ve been through
Girl I’m still in love with you
And I want you to know
I do, I do
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you
And need you by my side
I’m still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You’re still the one
You’re still the one

another song that sings exactly what im feeling. that’s brian mcknight’s still. i was listening to it when i was busy shopping yesterday and i knew immediately, this song is my current theme song. brian mcknight’s such an excellent singer. he just knows exactly how to describe one’s feelings. another singer would be joe. not sure of his full name but i can guarantee you any song by them both is meaningful.
am feeling rather sentimental now. am in the mood to love and be loved. cyber hugs and kisses not accepted. i guess it sucks when you’re left standing in the rain, not knowing whether to ring on his bell or not when you’re in front of his house. that’s the situation im in. i do not know where exactly do i stand. i feel like im not important at times because he’ll be so busy jolly-ing and he abandons you. but at times, he’ll be all so lovey-dovey and it makes you want to slap yourself hard for thinking silly. the see-saw of love, i’d call it. anyhow, ive promised myself never to let guys ruin my life, ever again. so for the time being, im bidding adieu to guy matters. i bet having a female lover would be less bitchier. i guess this is the time when having great friends come in handy. but the thing is, do i really have any? *gulps* oh, that pix’s erm my wicked fingers on the left. looking wicked cause it’s on purpose!

i finally baked my second batch of chocolate cookies. this one tasted much better than the first one (oh well, those were my virgin cookies, what can you expect?!). much more crispier too. my mom’s too egoistic to admit that these batch’s nicer than hers. above’s the before and after pix. hehe. i just wanna tempt shoot blanks with the pix. okies, it doesnt look that tempting but anything works for my shoot blanks. oh, another news. i just found out that my bro and gary might be classmates in pj college of art and design. small world, small world. hiaks. 😛
went driving around sri petaling, puchong and erm, sunway to practice my driving skills. this time, it was a much longer route and my dad was gonna have a heart attack seeing that i nearly bang two lorries, one car (waja), a cab and an orange cone. haha. the fcking cab driver kept horning at me (scolding, in other words). but i felt good. im so happy i am so much better at driving now. i shall soon drive up to cyberjaya daily for my classes (i hope so!) and i’ll go for more kopi ais marathon at stevens corner. hehe. yen ling’s back and she just gave me a ring not too long ago. am too broke as i went shopping again today but i only managed to get a sweater and was in a rush. no worries. more kopi ais marathons coming up! p/s : im really broke. i mean it! more ang pows this cny i hope. `o( anyways, im off now. my mom’s really sick again. she went for an x-ray and she had some kinda inflamation in her lungs or something. im really worried. the last time she had probs with her breast was scary enough and now this. pray for her yea? take cares. niteys!
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someone please bang my head hard on the wall. gary and my bro’s in the same class. gone case. they’re so gonna be gossipping about me. the best thing was they even had breakfast and all together this morning. wtf. hahaha. shit! *bangs her head on the wall* baguslah. they’re all heng tais now.
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