Monthly Archives: December 2003

orgasmic trip

orgasmic trip

hehe. *chuckles* haha. *laughs* im so happy. my trip to pg was ORGASMic. no wait, make it a multiple ORGASMic trip! i have so much to say but i dont know how to describe what im feeling. let’s just say, very very very good? i dont think im going to do the report kinda entry like the earlier one. see, i dont even know what to say. let me erm, post up pix first? 😛 p/s : too lazy for captions still. check my gallery, as always.



okie, let’s do a fast recap. reached on sat night, went for dinner at pulau tikus market. you should’ve seen the grin on my face when i saw all the food there. if i had a tail, i would’ve wagged it hard, really and not forgetting, if i had a really long pink tongue, i would’ve licked my lips hard too. 😛 and yea, you should’ve seen how much i ate. i love food. i live to eat. food is life. i like i love i want food. more food. *keeps on chanting her new mantra* okie, im not that porky but i think i did put on alot of weight. who cares?! haha. looks like my daily one-hour-a-day routine of swimming has come to no use after all. next day, i was just out for more food hunting with kris and danny. omg, i think from my usual two meals a day at kl, ive doubled up the amount of meals i have in a day. there goes my dream of having a bootylicious bod. *sniffles*
i spent my second day shopping for shoes like nobody’s business because the vincci in out of all places, island plaza, has my size. mak oi, and i nearly bought three pairs but thank god my empty wallet reminded me of my financial state. but i happily went to the atm to withdraw more money and then continued the next day food shopping again. okay, so i am a little porky when im in penang. we did alms begging at 7:45am to a pair of monks, something kris’s dad do weekly. it was nice. i dont usually do this, especially not so early in this morning. and next, i got my marketing basket ready and went marketing at two diff morning markets. hehe. yes, again, i repeat, i can make a good housewife at times. 😛 went doing a little this and that and then, tah-dah, met up with fon fon jai aka kookabura and shu yin darlings at gurney plaza. saw a few college mates but i just did a nod and smile. fon taught me a new order at cb, ice blended mocha with double shot… and it doesnt exist! *kicks fon’s cute ass* scroll up and you can see his cute ass. 😛
everything just went on amazing. we clicked instantly. fon and shu yin are just so open and im glad they didnt get any culture shock. sweet old daniel then came along joining us on his bike all the way from bkt mertajam. he was supposed to be in his swimming trunks to suit fon’s taste but what a big disappointment, he didnt. we spent the rest of the afternoon at fon’s bro’s room having some mass orgy. haha. i wish! we all share the same sexual preferences you see, so it’s safe with this two darlings. too bad edwin couldn’t join us, or else, at least, there’ll be a straight man in the room. oh wait, he isnt so straight… *thinks about the edwin/darryl relationship some months back* sighs. where are all the straight men?! 🙁
aijor, this entry’s killing me. this is what happens when you get multiple orgasms. haha. just forgive me on the “multiple orgasms” bit because it’s just some secret joke i shared with my friends. something semiotic, i would say. i actually wanna be sarky in this entry but i thought, eh, dont. becky must be all sweet and erm, sugary until year 2004 comes. my new year resolution is to … stop being bitchy and sarky … again! and yea, i think this is the 3rd year im saying this. never works. gilmore girls are bad bad influence. 🙁 anyway, i went for dinner at pulau tikus with “the crazy orgasmic gang” and then we went back to gurney plaza for some karaoke-ing sessions. seriously, ive never done this with ppl ive just met for the first time (except daniel, of course) and i cant believe we sang like we knew one another for a very long period. it’s just cool how we could like bang one another and all with no hard feelings and stuff (or at least, that’s what i think). and uh, daniel’s really a hot stuff. his phone rings 24/7!
biggest disappointment : i didnt get to meet patsy. she was one of the main reasons why im down also because i didnt get to catch up with her when she was in kl. 🙁 but it’s all good. shu yin, fon and daniel were such good gay partners to me. hiaks. 😛 oh yea, my bus was delayed for an hour and a half. boo. but i was being entertained by some cowboy movie and then followed on by some classic cd of teresa teng. hur. 🙁
this entry is fcking long. 🙁 but but but .. i have so much more to say. about my “stalker”, a hongkee (hong kong-er) raised in melbourne who now lives in kl and about my erm… ok, i cant think of anything else atm. brain dead. im so tired. there’ll be a dinner gathering at my place tomorrow night and i guess, countdown will be that. i’ll be alcoholic free for once on a special nite. im so happy. or maybe, i could just open all those miniature bottles given to me by my aunt. *hiccups* today was a really busy day for me. my phone kept buzzing and ringing. mostly from streamyx clients. aijor, cant i have a vacation in peace?! i dont know what’s with all the special attention im getting from my clients. im just too lazy to work but oh well, *looks at her atm resit*. ah, it’s empty. 🙁 anyone care to refill for me, please? *carries her milo tin around ala those scouts days at komtar* okie, too draggy for an entry. nobody’s gonna read this. haha. *crosses her fingers* nites people. merry new year and may you get married before cny. `o)
p/s : may the good lord bless anita mui’s soul. she just died of cancer. 🙁 and oh, kris’s family makes the bestest host. i feel so pai seh about everything but i didnt know what to do. thanks kris. love you!

amazing (se)xmas!

amazing (se)xmas!

omg. this has been a really merry x’mas for me afterall. though i didnt get what i wanted but i got even better suprises. suprises that left me with “laughter overdose”. im really happy and you’ll never see me stop smiling for a while. also, AJ dearest did me a really sweet fansign. i truly love it!
today’s blog is gonna be a lil reporty kinda entry so please bear with it. my x’mas eve started with me and gary having dinner at kim gary, sg wang. the set we ordered were really huge that we even skipped dessert and some cutlet thingy because we couldnt even finish our main course! we then met up with kris and belinda at sfc and headed to segafredo for some x’mas eve drink. they handed us some x’mas special menu but there was no bailey’s or vodka lime on the list. belinda read our minds and asked the waiter if there was vodka lime and hooray, we were all happy to see the waiter nod his head. the drinks were really pricey though but that’s maybe cos it’s not on promotion. you know, from the moment we stepped out of sg. wang, we were being attacked with foamy sprays by passersby and the spray sellers. it really irritated me at first but after midnight, we really had lotsa fun spraying one another. we should’ve gotten our own sprays because we became the prime victims at the bar by the bartenders and waiters/waitresses as our table was situated in the middle. there’s this waiter who kept spraying at me. he went on with stupid trick lines like, “wow, you’re clean” and he sprayed the whole can at me. there was this really kind bartender who passed me a few cans and we attacked them back. we even popped the balloons and all. i feel so kiddy but yet, i couldnt help laughing. besides, i was pretty high because i laughed too much. yes, im that easily fascinated.
after all the fun and all (not forgetting how badly attacked we were by nasty sprayers) at segafredo, we thought we would walk over to atmosphere to check out the crowd and find some of gary’s friends. we stopped by at prince hotel (kris and be’s room) and by the time we rested and all, we were too tired to walk to atmosphere, so we headed home. we girls pretty much lost our voices due to all the screaming. while walking back to time square, some asshole just came up to me and sprayed at me. too bad i wasnt prepared for it or else i would’ve sprayed him back. ish, idiot.
my morning started up with me getting up at ten with a major headache. went to kl to get my bus tix to penang and then im back at home before moving to sunway. i made liang wei waited an hour and a half but it wasnt my fault cos koay ling forgot to tell liang wei about the time changes. but yea, i was late myself. 🙁 we headed out straight to colin’s open house and then straight to bangsar for erm, a drink and catch up session. quite suprised to bump into so many ppl at that odd hour. who hangs out in bangsar during lunch time? ish! hehe… nice meeting you han g, ah hau, aik sua, song jun and erm, who else ah? *scratch head* wanted to head to voyeurs for either pool or some kinda place to foosball but it was all closed. 🙁 chic w3rn was playing at subang though but it’ll be too far to travel to there and all. ah oh oh, i bumped into a few ex-cptians and my then cpt closest friend, li shih. 😛 the closest cptian i am to now are maxine and shu yin darls though! oh yea, i did mention im going penang right? fon, leave me ur number in icq, please? i dont think i have it yet. below are some pix taken with my digicam. am too lazy for the captions. just check my gallery, yea? dont overspoil your eyes, though.





enjoy yourself with the pix. 😛 btw, i sorta scare theo when i appeared in front of his house. hiaaaaaks. im no stalker yea. *biggest tightest hugs for her legolas* anyway, i’ll end this “report” with a very interesting sms i got from my marky papabear. take cares and lotsa love, becks.
“wishing you not only love, but pure romance; not just sex, but erotic bliss; and not just sensations, but multiple orgasms! merry sexmas!”

merry x’mas

merry x’mas


Looking back on the memory of
The Dance we shared ‘neath the stars above
For the moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you’d ever say goodbye
And now I’m glad I didn’t know
The way it all would end
The way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I’d of had to miss the Dance
The dance
The dance
I would have missed the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn’t I a king
But if I’d only known how the king would fall
Hey who’s to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I’m glad I didn’t know
The way it all would end
The way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I’d of had to miss the Dance
The dance
The dance
I would have missed the dance
Dave Koz – The Dance
The Dance
Featuring BeBe Winans
Written by Tony Arata

been listening to dave koz non stop yesterday. i kept repeating the cd. even when i was awake, the cd was still playing. hiaks 😛 i think this song, the dance, talks about how someone has done a small mistake and because of that, his whole life slips away and he is sorta regretting it. i am sure we all go through that all the time, dont we?
you know, im very disappointed about a lot of things this x’mas. people whom you call friends and your loved ones just tend to forget you when they have “better” companions or “better” plans. i feel so used. anyway, i sorta felt betrayed as well because the one that i so wanted to be with is way too in love with his work. i know he’ll be reading this and i know he won’t be happy but i think i shouldnt just keep everything to myself. if i feel unhappy, i’ll SAY IT OUT! phew. 🙁 sorry.
i might not even go down to penang anymore this weekend. that’s how erm, bluey, i feel. haha. if only malaysia’s snowing. *dreams of snow* was doing a roadshow at low yat yesterday and suprisingly, business was VERY good, with four clients being stolen from me by colleagues but it’s all good. im a very nice person so i’m used to people stepping on my head. oh well, anyways, merry x’mas and a very happy new year! ho ho ho *rubs her santarina tummy*
p/s : cny is coming real soon too. can you guys please get married asap? i wanna collect more ang pows. `o)

pc fair

pc fair


ooo.. how do u like my x’mas turkey? oh whoops, wait, i meant my x’mas present, orlando bloom? (stop waking me up, thank you) lotr : return of the king was frigging good. im so impressed with everything. now, can i add another thing into my x’mas wishlist? can i have lotr vcds/dvds too? it’s something possible now, isnt it? 😛 oh, did u realise, pippins from lotr looks like hon faai in certain angles. i think yeeng agreed with me on that as well. 😛
as most of you would’ve known, i was working at the pc fair. ive bumped into some of you and that’s really nice! the sweetest thing (or at least, that’s what i feel) was, daniel and bernard came to look for me and since it was dinnertime, we had dinner together. it’s so nice meeting you guys especially since it was a suprise visit. too bad i didnt get to meet up with patsy the badsy who didnt even called me. 🙁 i bumped into jim yesterday (saturday) and we decided to go for dinner together. i feel so touched. *blehs*
am really tired and my new retail manager from the office where im doing freelance streamyx sales just offered me a job. sounds pretty good but i have to work 6 days a week so i told him nopes. im so damn picky, i’ll never get a job! hahaha. 😛 not forgetting fickle minded as well.
im pretty much confused with alot of things right now. mostly because ive been through so much and now some of my good buddies are going through it as well and it makes me think if i should ever ever risk putting myself back in the situation. i hate making decisions. i’d rather be stuffing myself with lotsa tau foo fahs (tau hueys) to death than to do so much thinking. im so in need of a kopi ais marathon at stevens. *hints* terence. oh yea, fr0stie is complaining so much about me not having a tagboard. so if you do happen to have a good tagboard script or something, do give it to me? see, frostie, im so nice! im doing it for your sake… 😛 and did you know lizzie baby’s back blogging? that’s the bestest bestest best (if there is such a thing) news ive heard all year long! hiaks. 😛
pretty much lost for things to say as im really tired. will be pretty busy this week, catching up with friends and all. so take cares, yea? be good this x’mas eve 😛 dont get too many kisses or well, other forms of physical activities. *grins* below is another quote for ian :
The shortest distance between two points is a straight line while the shortest distance between two hearts is love itself.

x’mas wishlist

x’mas wishlist


Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you
Or are you going back to the one you love
Someone’s gonna cry when they learn they’ve lost you
Someone’s gonna thank the stars above

i love the lyrics used in this song by glenn frey – the one you love. i think you might like it, ian! the song’s abit to the oldies side but yea, the lyrics sorta reflects some stuffs. again, it’s about decisions. life’s all about choices, isnt it?
cris, remember i told you once, i saw a guy who looks exactly like you at midvalley’s starbucks? i saw him again at pyramid’s starbucks! hooray! now we’ve got our “twins” to look for. 😛
christmas is just around the corner. what’s happening in town? i am so not updated. saddam hussein can be all over the front pages of the papers and i’ll be the last to know. so you can imagine how badly updated i am on the latest happenings in town. oh yea, let’s list down my wish list…
1) Gilmore Girls vcd (any season)
2) Black halter dress
3) Sexy stilletoes
4) A huge can of chupa-chups lollies
5) LOTR movie marathon tickets (all 3 movies together)
6) A possessive, jealous freak, controlling bf `o)
8) A great and fun filled job with a big pay cheque at the end of the month
9) Orlando Bloom / David Usher
10) More wishes… 😛
i cant help but be greedy. it’s just me. i just got another few job offers but ive decided to decline them because im still waiting for calvin’s offer. ive got two weekend job offers now as well and i think im taking one of them. i am pretty lost of words right now. ummm.. *ponders over what to say*. i think i’ll stop here and update later. take cares! 😛
p/s : theo, im done! i’m gonna be reading your blog now! 😛 and oh oh, did you know theo’s going to be “legolas” of lotr at klcc tomorrow? im so turned on!
(/edited) @ 3:52pm, 17th Dec 2003
check this out! it really put me in a x’mas spirit! i sorta baked some cookies yesterday and i did pasta and tom yum two days ago. oh gosh, im turning into housewife material! yikes! hehe. happy holidays!
xoxo,
santarina becks.
(/edited)
(/edited) @ 4:24pm, 18th Dec 2003
lotr releases today! hooray! *wiggles booty* oh wait, im sorry if i keep editting this entry. im too lazy to write another new one. the purpose of this entry? 😛

those pix are for you, shoot blanks!. i know you’ll lurve em. well, my sis and i somehow got addicted to baking cookies yesterday and we decided to bake cookies at 10.30pm! holy cow! we finished baking and cleaning up at 2.30am. hahaha. talk about being crazy! i know it doesnt look that good but oh well, im a first timer. i think i did pretty okie, without any help! *wiggles booty*
(/edited)

getting back in shape

getting back in shape

tragic tragic. i just made my dad call nasioncom regarding my broadband service and guess what? they’ve decided to put my block’s (and only my block’s) connection on hold. wtf?! all the other blocks has gotten it, and the nearby condominiums are getting streamyx . i dont know wtf do they need to privatise my condo’s telephone lines and now, i cant get broadband till god knows when. im truly heartbroken. 🙁
but oh, mr. shoot blanks has offered to let me use his streamyx connection and the package comes along with him! he’s all mine to do as i please. tempting tempting though im more interested in the streamyx connection. kidding, kevin! no worries, i still love you! 😛 it’s pathetic isnt it? here i am, working as a freelance sales agent for streamyx and i cant seem to use it.
anyway, just got back from swimming after a 13 months break. quite a long period eh? my head’s feeling really heavy now and this shows that im lack of exercise, i suppose. need to get back in shape badly for my cousin’s wedding in penang this coming february. as most of you would’ve known, i was badly sick almost two months back and my weight loss was enough to put marie france to shame because i couldnt almost eat (and i had to depend on liquid food)! after i recovered (not fully but im not gonna go into that), i started porking out especially with all the holidays that im getting (heavens, im on a four months break!). so yea, get back in shape. *concentrates*
anyway, on a job hunt. i got offered a couple of jobs and i decided to skip em all because calvin gave me a great offer. it’s at the sunway extremepark as an admin girl but ive got to do pr, deal with the media, kids, VIPs and all those crap. sounds pretty interesting and the pay’s incredibly amazing (for a kid like me, that is). also, it’s pretty related to what im studying. the only thing is, he hasnt confirmed it with me because his partner’s gone somewhere. i really hope it’s for real. 🙁 any of you out there has got a job to intro? *hiaks*
cris yesterday sms-ed me stating that he saw a “chun” chiq who looked like me. and when i was speaking to him earlier this morning, it seems he saw the girl at dharoos! omg. this is the second time someone has seen a chiq who looks like me in dharoos. a friend once saw a chiq who apparently looks like me in dharoos as well but it was weird because “i” acted like i didnt know who he was so he went up to the chiq and kept talking to his friend, “becky this. becky that” to see what was the chiq’s reaction. after trying a few times, he gave up and realise, it wasnt me. haha. WHO IS THAT CHIQ?! i ought to go dharoos to check my “twin” out. daniel and a few others have also told me that i look like this chiq, that chiq and yada yada. is my face that common? yikes! i ought to get a plastic surgery! but erm, the chiq daniel showed me the pix didnt look a bit like me … at all! i do know someone who most of my old readers claim to look like me… my beloved twin sister, AJ* ! i didnt actually realise until a few pix was compared. hiaks 😛
anyhow, again, this is a premade layout. ive designed a few but it didnt feel right. ive pretty much lost my inspiration in designing. sniffles. writing! i love writing. that’s my new love. anyone here has any freelance job on that? i know i cant blog for fcks but hey, i think im doing pretty okie with songwriting (esp corny ones!) and copywriting. oh speaking of songs, i was awaken rudely by my phone and i couldnt get back to sleep eventhough my head was feeling rather heavy (i slept at 7.30am!) but when i switched on my tv, josh groban was on it. his songs are orgasmic. oh dear, how i love his voice! *drools* alrights, this is a rather long entry. im done, really! oh wait wait, oh yea, once again, if you’ve found out of this site by accident, no hard feelings because i wanted to get everything done with all the funky layouts and stuffs loaded here first because i shout out to the world. so really, i do intend to tell everyone. only thing is, i wasn’t ready. okies, now im really done. take cares all. off to drive around the neighbourhood. the end. oh wait, can i end with a quote? stole it from song jun’s but i cant get the exact quote. so here it is… last from me, really!
-what would you do if the one who stops you from crying makes you cry?-

mt vs gm

mt vs gm

oh jesus, movabletype is so not playable. at least, not for me. i dare not play around with the codings because i fear i’ll screw things up. gm is so much more user friendlier in my opinion. oh yea, the famous question most has asked me on why am i using a premade template and not some “funky layout” like im used to having. well, im new with mt so it takes time for me to adjust myself. i could’ve simply designed some “funky layout” but there’s no point isnt it as i wouldnt know how to put it into my mt. also, ive pretty much lost my interest in designing and more to writing. just wrote my first mandarin song with eve’s help in translating, two english songs and am currently writing a book. no, nothing for the public, but for my own collection.
no purpose in writing this entry actually. i just didnt want my first entry to get lonely, so here comes a second. oh wait, i wrote this entry to tell you guys not to expect any out-of-the-extraordinary layouts because i think im sticking to this premade template for a while. my purpose is only to have a site where i can write stuffs and have people to read it during coffee breaks. you could always print it and read em when you’re doing your business in the loo, though, but i wouldn’t really recommend you to do that. and to those who have found out this url by coincidence and if you’re wondering why i havent told you about this new url, dont get pissed. i just didnt wanna announce this new url because it’s so plain and it’s so not me to have something so plain. i thought maybe once i get this place renovated then only i’ll spread the news around. really, no hard feelings. will be heading back to malacca for my granny’s birthday dinner. okies, im off to feed the ducks (dont ask me what ducks!). niteys!